jiayou jiayou

standing in front of the mirror...
looking at the person inside the mirror..
it's exactly the same person that i'm familiar with..
but why i feel like i'm a stranger to it?
it's like even i myself also couldn't read her mind..

one hour of talk with the academic advisor...
two hours of talk with my dearest mummy...
three hours of lectures with two respective persons...

i'm sorry if i've been harsh to you in words..
i don't mean it..
i'm sorry if i've been disappointing you in actions...
i dont' mean it...
i'm sorry if i've been rude to you in manners..
i dont mean it....
i'm sorry if i've been rebellious to you in asking for help...
i don't mean it...

i've lost my mind...
never been so lost before...
and i dunno hw to take it...
and so... somehow... i'm avoiding to face the fact...
and that's why i've been doing things that i nvr did b4...

trying my best to stand up from the fall...
struggling hard to gain back the confidence from the foe...
no doubt, i'm very scared now...
tears flow dwn my cheeks all the time...
i'm getting weaker n weaker...
how i wish i can fight back the "me" that i used to be as soon as possible..
as i hate the "me" now...

time is all i need..
and i wish that i've the support and care from you...
but not the nag that i fear most...
don't worry... i'll do as wat u said...
it's not a big deal of falling down...
but most importantly... i want you to know that i noe wat i'm doing...