30th october 2007

i jz bek from popo's hse...
for d whole day... i dint go n visit...
cz these two days... i had bad dreams...
which i oso dunno y...
anyway... jz dun really sleep well..

went to popo's hse after fetched mama to her lessons..
to hv dinner... it's around 750pm tat time...
2nd auntie still at popo's hse...
i stood at d doorside... looking into d popo's room...
popo is resting on her bed...
although it's quite some footsteps away..
yet i can feel her pain...
n i cn see her jaw has slightly drop..
still d swollen stomach...

today, i dare not walk into d room n look at her...

i told d adults bout tis...
n they ask me not to go into d room if i dare not...
cz it's jz so scary to look at d person tat once so healthy talking to u... but nw... look totally different...

still... i get to imagine her look from d adults' description...
they told me hw d "liquid" drip out from her hand..
her neck has shrinked...
her jaw... her heep swollen....
oh dear... it's so torturing...

wat is she thinking actually?

i came bek muar on saturday evening...
kah fook fetched wendy, me, n ah tian bek from spore...
cz popo's condition get worsen...
n 2nd uncle with the whoile family as well as 2nd auntie with her daughter also rushed bek from spore d morning on d same day...

cudnt really accept tat things really happen so fast..
still remember tat time we were rushing to n fro for popo n bebe...
n nw... popo's condition gets critical...
on n off she cud recognise us..
she has a bad back sore..
yellowish eyes, skin tat really frightens me..
although i knew it b4 it happens as i read from d book when we jz found out tat she has pancreas cancer... n tat's d symtoms..
but still... i cudnt accept it

n tat's wat happens when we reach muar n wat we saw in her when we went to hospital to see her..
then... kim stay overnite to take k of her..
as at tis stage, popo will struggle... cz she's in pain..
terrible pain.. tat none of us can imagine...
n poor popo will be tight up by d cloths on her hands n oso legs....
it's so heartbreaking when i saw d cloths on d table at d side...
when mama told me tat's d cloths used to tie her hands n legs..

d next day...
doctor actually told kim to inform us to bring popo home..
as there's nth much they can do ored...
no matter how we beg or i shud say bargain to let popo stay for another few days...
d reason i put bargain.. as we actually ask to let her stay for two days... then being rejected.. then we cut dwn d days to one day...
yet none being accepted...
cz as wat d doctor said... dripping has no effects on her...
n we hv to accept d fact...
at tat moment.... tears filled in all d presents' eyes...
but at least we tried....

then arrange for ambulance n all...
n she's bek home...

today is d 2nd day she's at home...
i dun feel tat she look good..
cz her lips turn a lil black... d skin too...
stomach still swollen...till d waist as well...
but surprisingly... her swollen legs... has no longer swollen...
i asked..... y...
none of the adults answered me...
then i heard the answer from d talkings....
it means bad.... not good....

in d evening... 2nd auntie called my mum...
n said... popo jz vomited d "blackish stuff" which i oso dunno hw to name it...
n again... sumbody from d family asked d doctor...
wat does it mean...
n it means bad.... not good....

adults jz keep telling me...
shud b these two days...
but she has a vr strong will to get well... get better...
she doesnt want to go so fast...
however.... in another way of thinking... which oso makes sense..
mayb... she'll feel better if she goes...
cz she's really suffering... it's so torturing...

but wat's in her mind tat force her not to let go??
sum say she jz cudnt let go.... but y??
mayb she still wan to c sumone...??
mayb she still waiting for sumone...??
someone tat she's been missing...??
i dunno....

my spore life...

many said tat i'm kesian...
i'm cham... i'm crazy... i'm lonely...
but who wud ever noe wat's in my mind??
d reason of being alone rather than goin out in groups???
those who had given me those comments above obviously wud nvr understan... n wud nvr noe.. =)




paying a visit to spore each sem break has bcm a routine in my life...
it mayb not be able to get understanding from everyone..
i jz wish to be alone...
out of all d things i'm use to...
out of all d ppl tat i noe...






















being alone at here....
d only one tat stay with me all time is timbo.....
whether or not ..... goin out for shopping... is another story...
cz i jz wish to think of nth....
luv her to d max... hehe..
cz we do bully each other...
i m d "dog sitter" for d week..
bringing her dwnstar to pee n poo..
then run here n there....
n of cz... taking pic everywhere... hahahha
se mz be finding me vr annoying... n crazy...
:P

bsides.... tis is d only chance tat i can really alwz be with my eldest sis....
cz we hardly meet each other...
although she wud alwz encourage me to go for shopping...
n bring me go for sushi n all....
yet it depends on my mood...
i jz hope to find a place tat i can really relax...
n laze around....

but i truly appreciate wendy n kah fook letting me stay here without doin anything...
sumtimes even mess out d place... =.=
thx for everything...

eight below

oh my....
tis is d best movie i've ever watched in tis past 10 months in 2007...
"eight below"
here's sum details of d movie...
n hereby i recommend tis great movie to all of u out there... hehe

EIGHT BELOW, by Walt Disney Pictures, is a thrilling, old-fashioned animal adventure that ranks with the best of such classic Disney films. Animal lovers everywhere will absolutely adore this movie. And, even if you've never even had a pet or wanted one, this gripping story will have you frequently on the edge of your seat.

Although loosely based on the same true story that inspired the 1983 Japanese film, NANKYOKU MONOGATARI, EIGHT BELOW barely mentions this fact, instead choosing to let its script work on its own rather than using the true story crutch.

Although the stars of the production are the very emotive canine actors with the magnificent scenery as their supporting cast, the human actors do a fine job playing third fiddle to the dogs and the view. Paul Walker, usually the epitome of blandness, turns in one of his better performances as Gerry Shepherd, an Antarctic dogsled driver.

Gerry spends six months every year transporting NSF scientists over the frozen earth. During the long winter, he is sent home since nothing can go in or out during that hostile season, making his services unnecessary. The love -- or more precisely the loves -- of Gerry's life are his eight trusty dogs who pull his sled.

You'll fall instantly in love with each of them too, but I think you'll be hard pressed not to like Max, the blue-eyed youngster of the bunch, best. When Gerry is called upon to risk his and his dogs' lives on a mission to find a Mercury meteorite late in the season when the ice is especially thin, he reluctantly agrees.

A series of misadventures causes the humans to have to leave the dogs behind, as the worst winter in twenty-five years sets in. Since Gerry thinks they will be able to fly back in a few hours, he carefully chains up the dogs outside. The rest of the movie is punctuated by updates on how long our canine friends have had to fend for themselves in a dangerous and inhospitable terrain. The periodic titles read, "Days On Their Own:" -- pause -- the ever increasing number.

The animals' mesmerizing story is alternately sad, uplifting, funny and terrifying. There is one particularly sad moment, rivaling the death of Bambi's mother, and another scary one that had me jump more than at any so-called scary movie. Although a little tyke sitting on our front row got frightened, I think most kids will be able handle the film since they will be at one with nature and the dogs.

As the story moves toward the conclusion, the only two questions remaining are how long it will take for the crew to return and how many of the dogs, if any, will still be among the living. Suffice it to say that you're going to need lots of tissue for the evitable tears of joy and sorrow. And, when you exit the theater, you are going to feel more at one with nature and with man's best friend.

as wat u read above... is d best description of d movie i cud find:P

however.. .here's sum of my sharings after watching d movie...

no doubt... it makes me not so sked of d sled dogs...

n here's two of d great dogs in d movie tat had inspired me.. hehe...

well.... d cute lil sled dog in d photo above... inspired me in her character "maya"...
although she's d only gal in d team of d eight sled dogs... however... she's d leader of d team..

she'll keep d team to be safe... using strategy to hunt d birds to ease their starvation during d 6 months in d storm... although got bitten by the leopard seal.. yet she brave herself up to continue the journey...

using her bravery to save the doc tat nearly drown in d water... here's d pic...

i'm really amazed with tis gal....
so proud of her... ><

n tis is max...

seriously.... i dun like max in d beginning...

as thru out d movie.... he behaves like a pup... ya... cz he's a pup... :P

however... those incidents in d movie... it makes him grows up

i still remember there's one scene... maya is d leader.. n she has to bring all of d team and gerry as well as d doc bek to d base... n tis timid pup... he actually hide bside d sled... hahahhaa....

but who wud ever thot tat he wud b so brave to lure d leopard seal in order to let his teammates hv d chance to eat d whale?? he's so brave.. n obviously he had grown up...

bsides... he look after d injured maya.... so nice... hehe...

n here's d other luvly doggies in d movie... enjoy it...

trust me u'll luv d show

i'm not a girl, not yet a woman

I used to think

I had the answers to everything,

But now I know

Life doesn't always go my way,

yeah...

~.~.~

Feels like I'm caught in the middle

That's when I realize....

~.~.~

I'm not a girl,

Not yet a woman.

All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,

While I'm in between.

~.~.~

I'm not a girl,

There is no need to protect me.

It's time that I

Learn to face up to this on my own.

I've seen so much more than you know now,

So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

~.~.~

I'm not a girl,

But if you look at me closely,

You will see it my eyes.

This girl will always find Her way.

~.~.~

I'm not a girl

(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).

Not Yet a woman

(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).

All I need is time

(All I need),

A moment that is mine

(That is mine),

While I'm in between.

~.~.~

I'm not a girl

Not yet a woman

All I need is time

(All I need),

A moment that is mine,

While I'm in between.

~.~.~

I'm not a girl,Not yet a woman.

memory lane...

singapore... here i come ><

m nw in kah fook's office..
the time now is 8.09pm
everyone here still working working n working
nyway..... reach here safely then ok ad la..
since i'm being provided by kah fook his another computer to surf net...
ahha... :P nth to complain about:P
hehehehe..
soon... the baby sitter of timbo wanna be.... will appear... ahhahahahha

hope tat the stay in singapore will b a nice one :D

holiday ^o^

holiday lo....
happy holiday to me n my fello mmu-ian frens.. :P
hehe... n selamat hari raya too...

actually, i still hv lots of entries to be posted..
but cudnt online with my laptop... so cant post them.. aiks..
too bad... :P anyway... will post them b4 school reopen la.:P
hehe...
hmm... those entries are about frens' bday... cyber c1 hse... tempo tempo hsemates... n most important one... the one tat i'll nv ever forget... my dearest korean frens... tat i miss them so much.. wonder they think like me too?? hahaha:P i dun mind... hehe
then ... bout my latest life.. working life... which ored ended last two days... n then.. the latest primary schoolmates gathering... wow~~!!

i cudnt wait to post all of them :P hehe...
but... it takes time to write them all.. isn't it? hehe

just tat the photos bout my working life... hmm..
i hope si pocuppine still keep it... cz my hp rosak... masuk kilang lo.. hope tat still can get it from him...
si pocuppine and sze hui... my two partners in my working place..
it's my pleasure to noe both of them...
we help each other during the peak time of the business...
teasing each other... playing around.. hahaha...
though we are from different family backhground, different gender, different age... yet we hang around just like we hv know each other for ages...
i'm just gonna miss the two of them every second... =)

life without working started two days ago...
mana tau... no work... sick pulak.. :P
ridiculous,rite?
haha... i think so too..
nyway.... gonna leave for singapore soon... after dad came bek from hong kong.. then it will b my turn to leave the hse n go to my sis's place... taking care of her daughter.. which is timbo.. :P

tis morning... was woke up by mum cz popo's condition worsen (said gong gong)..
but when we rush to gong gong's hse... she's ok..
got a big fright... definitely not a nice one..
whew... i'm glad she's not as bad as wat i imagine when i heard mum told me... ><
but her stomach bengkak till d waist there oso bengkak... legs oso swollen... n numb too...
she has no feeling on her legs ad... i feel so sorry for her

looking after the sick ones is nv a simple task.
thanks to kim taking care of her....
though jz nw popo actually complaining that noone gv her food... '
but kim nv treat her badly.. popo had her so call "meal" when she half conscious...
not tat noone gv her food to eat...

after settling dwn...
we went to hv lunch with gong gong...
was not feeling well by tat time.. i mean me... cz got a bit fever... ><
but still... act as if nth happen... makan as usual...
then auntie rambo fetch gong gong bek home..
while i fetch mama go buy stuff b4 bek home..

guess wat i did all afternoon after lunch??
haha... drink water... water .... water.... water...
like i nv ever hv d chance to drink anymore.. :P
tml hv to leave for singapore... tis is a critical time... cannot get sick ar... !! @@

then during evening... i ajak mum to play badminton... :P
jz to release out the heat in my body...
feel much more better nw after played d badminton.. :P
hehe.. whew... ><
pray hard hard dun get sick yo...

kla... time to bath lo....
i wish tat i can get bek my hp soon...
sorry for those tat contact me thru hp ya....
happy holiday...

** 06/10/2007 ** there goes my teenage....

tick tuck..
tick tuck....
tick tuck.....
time strucks 12am...
06/10/2007== which indicates... "there goes my teenage years"
hw do i feel?? hmm... stress..

obviously.... cz of ecp...
i changed my status msg again n again....
but still cudnt get out of the range of having tension or stress mood :P
but still... life goes on, isn't it??

let's think think... last year tis day.. wat was i doin??
ooo... last year tis date... tis time.... i'm oso stress-ing with ecp:P
y la ecp luvs my bday so much... good Q to be asked to MMU...
makes me a fool studying like a noob...
n pia-ing like a crazy gal...
end up stil dunno hw to do d paper....

frankly... d 1st day of tis 20 years old is not nice at all....
cz i'm stressed out... i'm doomed....
cz of the damn ecp paper...

but still i appreciate for those who helped me thru....
grateful to those who celebrated my bday for me...
thankful to those tat send their best bday wishes to me....
thank you thank you.. appreciate lots....

1st... thx to CARROTEGG's family
my dad, mum, wendy, tina....
i'm sorry tat i dun hv mood to talk when u all call me...
cz i really vr vr down.... but i hope u all can understand....
luv u all.... muacks....

at 2nd... thx to tempo hsemates...
thx for letting me tumpang in tis warmy hse..
i shouted, i laughed, i cried, i kisiao, i lame, i kanasai.......
all the things done here... i hope nv offend u all:P haha...
at least it's not tat tension when study here...
n thx for guiding me in the subjects taken... >< gamsiah lots lots.... then....

thx to kelmynn, elaine, alvin, juinhau, karen, kok eng, wei jie, alex..
thx for the call yest.... kinda surprise....
though u all oso not so united when talking... haha...
n part of the conversation are among u all.. but not to me..
yet... it's vr sweet of u all calling me n wishing me happy birthday... thx...

campers.. oh my dear campers...
to eemay, bobby, khangleng, darren, khenghui...

n thx for the card n cake... luv it to d max... the bestest prezzy....
it's not bout the price tat takes....
but it's bout the actions tat u all had done...
tat made me feel so touched....
sorry cudnt chat long with all of u.... yumcha again k??


CALLs...
(1) thx to jimui chui chui....
though the conversation kinda weird....
cz two of us sound like dead meat...hahahha
but still... wana say thanks for calling...
cz the wishes on bday are alwz the sweetest one...

(2)thx to banana.... for calling...
though cudnt hear ur sweet voice singing bday song for me
cz bimbo actually "answer" d call for me... n sorry for tat.. :P
nice to noe u too.... jiayou jiayou ok?

(3)thx to weijie(chua).... miss u so much yo.. hahahha:P
thx for calling... n cheers me up:P hehe... dun think so much...
though i still dunno wat u told me is true or not...:P
take k yo.. miss ya

(4)thx to xiaobai... :P hahaha... so pat la u.... but hor.. when u noe liao..
gv me d latest news la... hahaha:P

(5)thx to fax... hahahha... frm sleepy talk till awake a... jz like wat u said.."when 38 meet 38" then tat's wat happen:P hahaha so long nv pat for so long liao... nice one... though it's late nite... appreciate it lots... n i'm 20 not 21... :D chat till no battery wo:P kkakkak

SMS....
thx to....
jimui wei jie, si tortoise, ying ying, tomato, soon ming, chiao er, wong kok,
Ang, zheng hui, deriak, hui lin, jia wei, banana, lip liang, pei shan, gundu,
khai ling, hock sheng, sutesh, aik chong, fuyo, jack, liping, choon ki,
hui sin, chee yi, blind yan, jimui chee hong, mummy jia qi, jing ye,
boss jia xing, man man, zhen zhi wei, wei boon, fax, nana, derek(cls)....
i hope i nvr miss out anyone.... hehe...
n i did reply my gratitude to u all....hahaha... :P
jiayou jiayou.... ><

TESTIMONIALS.....
thx to ...
karen(dj zhu zhu), loshanah, lana, rachel, jameson, siujane, hui yin, jeff,
khangleng, darren, tommy, bobby, alan dexter, cloudy, ying tian, amos,
ling, ni zi, ji ni, eemay, nana, sharon, tjun wern, stan, cymon, sin yuan,
suki, mei rou, yong kang, chun yee, chiau hui, see seong, gavin, jess ks,
mei ling, sushi, li jing, koh, aboody, kok chian, shiau hui, goh, yin yee, evon, shuh yin, Qreeez, hwee du, soket, ting cheng, suki, tze yang, pegan,
siao sze, william khoo, michelle.......
no matter wishes from wat kind of frens....
old frens, long lost frens, ch3 frens, sab frens, muar frens, mmu malacca frens,
mmu cyber frens, working frens, net frens.... FRIENDS...
u hv my blessing as well....
do keep in contact thru frenster ok?? :D
cz i alwz blive tat frenster is d place tat links me to all of u....
no matter which end of the world u are in....
n if there's any nid... i'm jz a phone call away... or a msg away... :)

MESSAGE.....(frenster)
thx to..
melinda, big sis dumbo, yong, chee wai, hakan, esther, chen ming, yee....
wow.... tis is the first time i got bday msg thru frenster msg....
so nice... >< frenship 4eva oooohhhhh!!!!

MESSENGER....
YM !!!
tat's wat mmu-ian favors... :P hehe
but still it do help me in getting wishes from u all...
so i luv it too... ahhaha:P
here goes my thanks to...
sawlay, melvin, sook ching, albo, andrew, ngeow, gjen gkai, victor,
lucas, yu lin, jiaxing, aik chong, harry, cutegg, sotong, ting cheng.....
(MSN)!!!
kang yong, winston, aboody, yunfei, huisze, fishee, ah oong, boon peng, ah oong...
hehe.... i hope i dint left out anyone...

n then... the celebration at manhattan fish market.....

though d candles stuck into my nose... tat's awful...
n all the serbuk on my face... tat's wat u all so call "mascara"
hahahha... but still i enjoy it... thx....

There goes the story in Manhattan fish Market... :)




























opening... ~~~ food food food... :P
then....





















(a) cake cake ceremony.... happy belated bday to chee wei yo











(b) bday prezzies... hahhaa.... cute lil prezzies presented by soon ming, gkai, juin hau









(c) photo session... hehe... =P

* GROUP PHOTO *

for those who present... kelmynn, elaine, liping, alvin, chee wei, wei loon,
derek, gjen gkai, hui ying, yingying, juin hau, karen, soon ming..... thx ya.... :D

OLDY
n thx to oldy... hahah.... the cute lil dog of jack's fren... :P
so cute... thx for letting me go n play wit oldy...
having fun jz nw... thx ya jack n d hsemate.. :P hehe



n thx for the ice cream...
paiseh... .alwz kacau u in ym....
cz kinda gesiao liao... due to stressnes...
but hope u dun mind...
jiayou jiayou... dun stress la...
i will enjoy d ice-cream de... hahahah:P

FINALLY....
the call from yan yan...
thx ya.. :D
jiayou jiayou together ok??
cya around in muar... or singapore....

BLOGSPOT
n of cz... not to forget those tat leave me msg in my blogspot...
wishing me happy bday....
thx ya... tomato, aikchong, shuwan, boggie, kangyong, bobby, fuyo....
thx a lot:D

n not to forget....
those same bday with me....
tat i noe....
kelzoe, wei ning, goh, arief, mummy's mama...
happy birthday to u all too....
may all ur wishes come true...

thx for the blessings...
thx for the card...
thx for the cake...
thx for the treat....
thx for the celebration...
thx for the memories....
thx for everything

no matter what it is.... wherever i go... whatever i do....
i pray for the best for u all....
thx for the blessings.... happy 20 years old ><

~ DJ life ~ during gamma 1st sem...

5 gals in one slot is definitely... haha.. ><
talk bout gals's stuffs mostly la... :P
so as to let guys noe more bout gals mah... :P
n so the slot is named as GIrL'S talk.. "nu ren, nu ren, nu ren"...

being a dj at radiommu for almost one yr plus ad....
so many things happen... so many things i've learned thru out d on air sessions, events, meetings, experiences from seniors.... all d good n bad ones... all d sweet n sour ones...>< ... gamma 1st sem... get bek to d studio...

hmm... ganjiong... sure will la...
almost one sem dint on air... then sudd get bek there..
but... i'm glad to hv these 3 juniors to be with... n dj xiaomi to help me thru.. :D XIAOMI.. u so geng.. :P
still rmb we do the jingles?? at foe building.. haha...
da nu ren, xiao nu ren, wen rou de nu ren, n all sorts of nu ren... :P
it's so fun... i hope u all enjoy too...

then i can c d improvement in each n evryone of u n myself.....
from ganjiong till cant even speak properly.. till can talk lively to the mic in d studio... good job gals...
u all gv me surprises each time b4 u all "open mic"...
cz sure three of u will made sum prepation of d opening.. hehe..
although it's being said.. me n xiaomi are d seniors....
yet i did learn a lot frm u all... bsides guiding u all ><

although only few times of on air sessions...
i reali cherish each time of the time spent with u all... ><
sorry if i ever hurt anyone of u including xiaomi verbally ..
n i hope tat can hv d chance work with u all again...
jiayou jiayou jiayou... :D

these are the photos taken on d last day of on air sessions.... :D

memories of nu ren nu ren nu ren

where's xiaomi?? :|

gals actions... :D aza aza fighting... ><
oops... tat's the DJ manager

the power of 5 gals.. ><











~.... from left to right... ~
...DJ zhu zhu, DJ karen, DJ tomato..
... DJ karen, DJ tomato ...
... DJ zhu zhu, DJ karen, DJ jidan ...