d weekend

i went for cnye camp on saturday morning...
being one of d members of d logistic team...
i was being assigned to look after of all d cai wu...
thus... i gotta do d application procedures...
then check d cai wu, do d marking list...
n make sure tat all d stuffs reach morib camp...

although i hv zero experience in being a cnye member...
yet.. i joined tis camp just to hope tat i can gain sth diff from tis camp...
besides, it's been a while tat i dint join any activity...
however, it's kinda tough for me...
as monday we hv one midterm paper... n in d afternoon there's one lab session...
n wednesday we hv one submission for d assignment...

still... i choose to join d camp....
with open minded n open heart....

tis is d first time i'm officially a member in logistic division...
tis is d first time i join as cnye camp committee..
tis is d first time i go to morib...
tis is d first time being a cameraman...
tis is d first time as the first aid kit person in charge...
tis is d first time as a translator...
tis is d first time stay awake for whole nite chatting with campers... (really happy to noe u all)
tis is d first time got bitten by so many sandflies...

lots of first time....
no regrets of joining camp...
though today... i really dunno hw to do d paper...
cz not enuf of preparation....
sad... of cz will still hv tat feeeling...
cz i really feel tat tat is a vr easy paper...
but wat to do..... let bygones be bygones...
i'm just gonna strive harder for my final paper n assignment
tat's wat i promise to myself... :)

exhausted....
sunburnt....
headache....
homesick....
messy lifestyle...
sick...

i'll cure it one by one.... with my own spirit....
jiayou!!!!

tired

jz bek from shabu shabu then pool at oldtwn....
tiring day.. but enjoying indeed...
it's d first outing with alex(bday boy), natasha(new fren), wei jie, kok eng, kok boon, eng heng, jimmy, ah foo...
thx for inviting me yo.. =)

we ate a lot... really alot...
seems like ored eat till tml dinner as well..the photo above is jz 1 or 2 percent of wat we ate..... hahahha
kinda too kong bu ya... :P

nice chit chat with natasha... a cute gal tat really good in social... =)
then laugh n play all d while till bek...
tis photos is d photo of d guys....
wei jie not wearing black shirt... :P
too bad....

n who noes... so ngam... i'm wearing black...
so tis is d "man in black"
hahaha :P
n tis.... is taken with natasha... :P

n nw?? gotta face d reality...
study study.. study...
haiz... :P
but anyway..... play so hard ad ....
it's time to do sth oso la.. hehe
jiayou oh....

still got more photos coming up....
hope to upload it soon la..

another day...

tml is another day...
another day for 9am class...
aiks.. ><
these two days...
wat hv i done?
hahaha..... drama drama n drama...
tidied my room n changed d fengshui in d room:P hehe

heard from yan yan today tat he gonna go to spore tml...
hope for d best to him lo... hehe
guess he'll stay at wendy's place gua...

tis week gonna be a tough one again..
tennis, KLS, study... assignment >< ... aiks
jiayou jiayou oh..... !!
i miss u all in mlc...

together for a better life.... jiayou

d wake

To my dearest popo

although it's ored a past....
but i jz hope to take tis time...
which finally i get to hv d time sit dwn n write a blog entry to reminisce my dearest popo....
after 2nd sem starts, i've longed to write tis...
nth to stop me nw.... n i jz gonna write it dwn...

31st October, as usual....
i went visit popo with mum.... around 8pm....
i went strait to d dining room as d adults (gong gong, 2nd aunt, kim) were all there having dinner..
after greeting them, i went into popo's room to c hw's her condition...
nth change, she's stil sleeping soundly after had her medicine...
then bek to d living room, i on d tv n watch d show...

since d nxt morning, i'll be following papa bek to cyber,
i contacted my fren to go for sum drink at nite...
it's still under planning... n so i told my fren tat i can only out b4 10pm as i wish to stay for longer time at nite at popo's hse.... cz i had sum bad feeling tat if i bek cyber... mayb i will no longer c her again....
n so.. at roughly 9pm... my fren sms me to go yumcha...
i bid goodbye to d adults... n informed mum tat i'll be bek at 10pm....
n so i drove to d place tat we agreed to meet....
coincidently, my fren's "brother"'s car broke dwn at sumwhere... sumhw he had to help out... n so we called off tat yumcha session....
n i bek to popo's hse...

when i reach popo's hse... they were watching tv at d living room...
so i joined them.....
around... 10.30pm.. as usual.. uncle ah hock came n pay visit...
he went into d room with his wife... again... tears filled their eyes...
then we had chit chat session at d dining room....

in d mid of chatting... i heard kim said "o lang come!!" which means my dad came...
i went to outside to greet him... n obviously his face... indicates... he jz bek from drinking with his frens or customers... :P
then he went into popo's room... which was really a rare case...
cz dad oso had sum phobia.... he cudnt slp at nite after looking ppl suffering...
but i bet... he mz be vr sanfu oso...
cz he sked tat bad things happen again like wat happened last time tat he cudnt send his own elder bro d last journey....

then followed by mama, uncle ah hock n his wife, then 2nd auntie and me...
we went into d room try to ask her who she waiting for actually....
n oso sum "good words" which i dunno hw to explain here...
nyway.... the scene frightened me.....
cz everybody was crying.... including me...
d scene let me had sum bad feeling.... is it really tat d deathmaster gonna take her away....
although mum alwz ask me to be prepared.... cz she noes tat i'm kinda sentimental...
but still.... haiz....

d "good word" session last for a vr long time.... which d details will alwz b in my heart...
then... d storm came.... storming nite.....
rough wind.... heavy rain.......
we tried to stay as long as we can...
but d next morning dad still hv to travel to kl..... so we bek home at around 1+am...
by tat time, uncle ah hock n his wife stil not leaving...

reached home.....
i still dun feel calm.... terrified... sked....
dunno hw to explain tat feeling....
then mum n dad went upstairs n slp...
i was sitting dwnstars packing my stuffs....
when i jz start d packing..... phone rang!!
goodness..... i hate phone rings.....
i picked up d phone asap....
n all i cud hear was " si jie.... ni men hai shi kuai dian hui lai mother jia...."
which translated into english is.... "4th sis, you all better bek mother's hse asap..."
tis was a call from my uncle's wife...

i hung up d phone.... i took d car key....
n i shouted "i'm prepared.... i'll drive... "
i knew tat tis had gonna be a long nite........
n i dun think tat my parents gonna b alrite emotionally....
so i tried to do watever tat i can....

it was still raining at tat time....
uncle ah hock n his wife, 2nd aunt were in popo's room....
popo was awake....
i kneeled dwn, hold her swollen left hand.... i tried to call popo..... but i dunno she cud hear me or not...
then i stepped bek to let d adults settle.....
finally, popo said it out......
which means.... she oso knew tat she dun really had time.....

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all in my mind....
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530am...
i bek to my own hse with my dad....
cz he still had to travel to kl to work....
n he had not enuf slp...
though i decided not to bek to cyber... but i still nid to go with him....
at least there's sum1 chit chat wit him on d journey...

i asked dad to go n hv a short nap...
n i'll wake him up at 7am....
in order to stay awake...
i went n had a cold water bath....
i on d tv.... n sms my fren.... ( thx)

at 630am.... i was predicting d bad thing.... to make myself hv mentally preparation...
phone rang...
635am....... popo left us.....
i heard from d other side of d phone.... it's mum....
she mz b heart breaking....
yet staying so calm to deliver tis msg to me....
popo.... RIP

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sum of my frens are surprise to noe tat.....
my popo actually is my maternal grandma......
ya.... she was my maternal grandma.... a great lady....
during d wake of 4 days..... uncles n aunties told me about popo's past life....
hw hard she strive to earn money in order to send her children for education purposes....
wat a sociable lady she is... had so many frens.... in all races...
n then..... wat a nice grandma she is to us....
thx for everything... popo....
u let me noe bout d power of living.... hw u wish u cud b with us for longer period...
but... dun b sked... dun be sked.....
u'll alwz be in our hearts.....
my beloved popo....

14th nov 2007

today is d 14th....
shud say... i ored get over d feeling of down... or shud i say not??
i dunno....
it jz cm bek to me abruptly when i saw d shout out at wendy's frenster,
"rest in peace grandma.."

too many things happen....
n i think is bcz i'm too weak....
so i cudnt let go n get over it....

smiling face at least still stick with me everytime i go to campus...
however... whenever it's at nite....
d feeling of dunno wat's next...
d pictures of wat happen on tat nite... jz cudnt get rid from my mind....
i guess.... i still cudnt adapt d life of losing her...

i'm lost....
exactly....
but deep in my heart i noe.....
i shud stand strong...
n i will.... it jz......
takes a longer time to heal tis scar....
altho it will nvr b able to amend anything....
at least.... it will ease n lead me to a better life....

n tis is wat i can only blive in.....
jiayou...

nvr explain urself to anyone

was glancing thru my msn list jz nw....
these few days were not so good for me...
cz jz cudnt let go...
bad memories jz keep on pestering me....
n this status msg in my fren's msn.... caught my attention....

"nvr explain urself to anyone... bcoz the ppl who likes u doesn't nid it... & the ppl dislikes u wont blive it"

it is so true.....
which makes me feel at least better than previous days...
thx to d person tat create tis quote :D

ah gong's bday <28/11/2007>

thru out my 20 years life... tis is d first time i celeb my ah gong's bday...
and it's d first time i take pic with my ah gong..
dun ask me y... cz it's jz too long story to be explained... :P
anyway... being able to live till 84 years old... it's really vr vr good....
n being d granddaughter... of cz when parents said we were invited to attend d bday celebration... without hesitating... i went for d celebration and represented my siblings..

of cz.... i wont gv up d chance to take pics with other uncles n aunties too...
actually... it's kinda ironic feelings when attend d celebration..
as popo was suffering at home ... n of cz d sad feelings bout popo is still there...
yet i hv to show d happy face here cz it's sth to be happy with....
i can only say tat.... life is unpredictable.....

the picture aboved is those cousins tat present...
kinda kelam kabut tat nite... cz they all shy shy...
haha.. :P
but anyway....
thx to xing jie for helping us to take pics... n send d pics to me...
appreciate it lots... take k

CH3 6M gathering on raya

years after years.... things change... looks change.... but frenship nvr change....
it's again d primary schoolmates gathering...
tis time.. organised by boon peng.... on raya holiday =D
glad to c u all again

n tis is d group photo... hehe....
mayb we shud take out our own photo during CH3 to c hw fast time flies ya... :P
take k all my frens

finally... the family pic of C1-0-11

name them if u noe my hsemates... :P hehe
too bad... no prezzy... haha

thx ya

forever in our hearts

bye bye po po....
although i noe it's a relief for u as there's no longer suffering...
yet i still feel d pain of losing u....
thx for all d deeds tat u have done...
thx for d care n luv tat u showered to us as ur grandchildren...
thx for taking care of us whenever i fall sick...
thx for guiding us since we were kids...
hope u will be fine up there...
taking care of us, luv us altho we can nvr c u again.....
luv u... my dearest po po