Monday, November 13, 2006

nice nice lyrics.... =)

江美琪-对你有感觉

我曾深刻体会
对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你
给我安慰


看你失落的脸
又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈


眼角的泪
它给过谁
伤透了心
也无所谓
我会愿意
静静地
陪在你身边


如果说爱
已不可为
那我宁愿
藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉


怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线


怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退
被爱包围
谁犯规
都狼狈
谁能解围
让一切完美


怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我
拥抱瞬间
不后悔
这暧昧
星光唯美
把爱放心里面



Sunday, November 12, 2006

there goes my 1st week of 2nd sem...

study study...
tis sem is a tough one for me...
long story... n i dun intend to share it..
sorry... but i jz dun wana be treated differently.. hope u all understan la..

tears drop ever since i step into tis 2nd sem... kind of sad rite?
yea... tat's y i cherish each n every second i spend in tis 2nd sem like i nvr do..
treasure each n everyone tat had left their footprints in my life...
enjoy my campus life jz like i alwz do...
luv my lecturers like i nvr did? ... hahahhaa....

bt one saddest thing is tat... i had chosen to gv up wat i luv most..
a hard decision to be made... a struggle tat is so hard to get rid of...
n in d end.. i decided to quit... ya....
it's being told tat jz for one semester... Nway... i wish it is....
but who noes...
hopefully la...

1st day of my 2nd sem....
wuhuhuhuhu... dimsum~!! yeppee... @@
syiok leh... hahahha... dint sleep tat day... make me blurer on tat day...
but kinf of a memorable start of my life...
hahahha...
jz a simple sms... then it changes my 1st day of 2nd sem...
morning dimsum... afternoon? hahah... tongshui... wow... really enjoy leh...
cool isn't it???... bt i'm being trained... dun simply learn from me yea... hahahah
tat nite chatted wit mynn for whole nite.. wow...
we shared lots of experiences n coomments... hehe...
i mz say tat... again... i really glad to hv her as my roommie... my dear dear pretty roomie..

2nd day of 2nd sem...
the cruel reality of giving up has been announced....
i'm being asked n asked n asked.. yea... cz ppl cant accept it too.. so do i..
then the movie screening.. nice show... luv on lushan mountain...
hahah... still remember ang said tat the lushan zhen mian mu... hahaha...
mana tahu really appear in tat movie.. made us laugh non stop..
oh yea.. 2nd day of 2nd sem... (DLD CLASS IS REALLY BORING... sob sob..)

3rd day of 2nd sem...
erhme... unevitable... DLD is not the only one tat is boring... PMS lagi teruk/. haha
aiks... so cham...
RMMU DAY meeting... Tshirts out... haha... we sang the theme song together...so happy..
long time dun hv tis feel liao.. the familiar yet long time dun hv the family feel in campus...
again... i hv to make decision... isit tat my life is all bout making decision?? aiks...
decisions made... but sadly.. it's too late... too late...
wat i wan is no longer mine... i can only blame myself for taking so much time thinking n decising... but still i'm grateful tat he trusted me so much.. thx...
but for myself... i blame myself... til i collapse tat nite...
thunderstorms... lightning... floods... volcano eruption... it's all wit me...
jz bcz i cannot accept the fact... silly me...

4th day of 2nd sem...
no longer an on-air DJ... no more slots... no more studio time...
tis thursday is no longer a busy day...
but still i enjoy my day... making myself become the cheerful gal again...
=D watch the movie screening... hmm... a story without an obvious ending... make me n ahyyi so confuse... haha... we looked at each other wit tat amuse face... :P

5th day of 2nd sem...
rain drops keep falling on my head.... haha... everyday raining.... sien la...
tis day... hmm... a busy day indeed....
morning gotta jaga booth... aiyo... friday jaga booth... sien kah...
but wat nice is... haha... finally i enter LIMKOKWING... oops....
haha... me n ang had our early lunch there...
wat a cool uni it is... so diff from mmu... feel myself so tiny when i enter tat world... :P
hmm... then whole afternoon is tat freezing cold library.. hehe...
nite?... yeah... can hold mic again.. =D
but a while nia la... haha.. cz no feebback... for the movie screening
tat nite... the movie really nice... me n shyyi nearly shed our tears... :P

6th day of 2nd sem...
sob sob... hv to wake up so early... cz got MUET.. aiks...
then rush to my sis's registration... aiyoyo.. kesian choonki.. hv to rush wit me...
but really really grateful for ur ride.. thx...
wat bout in the nite.?.. haha... sleep like a log.. haha.. but then kena frighten by tat stupiak nitemare.. ish ish... make me dare not sleep bek pulak...
luckily i hv great frens comforting... thx to all tat comfort me.. (wei jie... thx for protecting yea.. hehe.. hui ching.. thx for chatting wit me.. u really like big sister... ying.. thx for remembering tat bullied by 86 is more scarying.. haha.. oops... ang, chee wei, kai... thx for the jalan jalan.. kai gor.. thx for joining my "kai" family.. =D)

7th day of my 2nd sem??
haha...
who noes wat happen in the next second leh..
but surely will be nice la..
=D
there goes my 1st week of 2nd sem...
muacks...

Thursday, October 26, 2006

the greatest bday 06

Though it’s ored nearly one month
But still I nid to write tis blog for all tat I care n all tat I luv…
A simple word… “thx”… is all I can say…
It’s hard to list all of ur names here… but… I’ll try my best to do so…
U noe who u r… hehe.. luv ya

Firstly~~ my dearest papamama… pa.. ma… u all r the earliest tat wish me yoh…
I noe u all very worry bout me cz me nvr celebrate bday alone~~ or wit frens… each year I’ll b celebrating wit u all…esp tis year… shud b the happiest for me.. cz I like mid autumn festival the most.. n so ngam.. tis year my bday on tis fantastic festival… but too bad.. I got exam on tat day!!~~ n so it makes u all worry.. n u kept on calling me to let me feel more comfort… hehe… thx a lot.. n.. I really feel the warm n care from u all though it’s jz a simple phone call from u all in muar… dun worry… ur ah bi is strong girl… wit strong will.. luv u two the most~~!! Muacks

Secondly~~ my two gorgeous sisters.... supporting me all the way thru.. though I’m alwiz so bad in temper.. u all still care about me n treat me so well… feel touched in a way… =D . but u noe.. hehe… it’s alwiz hard to say out hw much I miss u all.. n care bout u… a simple sms from u two sisters has warmed my shattered heart tat day after my exam… thx… wendy.. comforting n consoling me thru the sms… moral support from siblings is alwiz so important for me… thx.. jiayou jiayou… n tina… gonna step out from the single life yoh.. hehe… wish u happiness… n I’ll try to attend the registration ya… be the prettiest bride in the world.. my dear…

Thirdly~~ singyee (2mei), lip liang (happy bday to u too 05/10… hehe.. I’m younger than u leh.. hehehe), hui ru (ah ru.. miss u so much), ivy, lijing (jiemei), shirlin, esther (half sis), huisze, kuiyen (daddy), sawlay, huisin (my lenglui bestfren since primary3), tzerhaur (bestfren), fax, kahjuin, tina (2nd sis), boon chean, xiayan (blind), chiaoer (jiemei), weeling (happy bday to u too.. miss u lots my halfsis), chunyee, aikchong (shifu), Manfred, wendy (big sis), weiming (future bro in law), ali, cheemun (ah gong), sook ching, terry (zhipaikuang), xiaowen, youyi (uncle fish), jiaqi (mummy), yiwen, shenni (my bestfren in muar), jasonlim, yenlee (my bestfren since form2), jiuhau, choonki, cheetat (my lil bro egg)….. thx for the sms wishing yo~~~ tat’s very sweet of u all remember my bday n send bday sms to me… u’ll nvr noe d best feeling I get in my bday is to get to read ur sms~~ cool… reading the sms tat is so meaningful in my bday06… thx…. Muacks

Forthly~~ “Jason, Joshua, tzeyang, jess ks, kersoon, Jessica”=> (hehe.. thx yea.. though we dun really noe each other), lenlui kaijing, TK (my lil bro), kai ning, Anne, stan (cool senior), William, yanyan (thx yea… remember the star yo.. hahaha), meiling (d first muar-ian I noe in cyber), yongkang (hengdai), iQbal (playboy), shereen, xiayan (blind.. hehe), lijing (jiemei), PS, huisin (my dearest fren in tis world), szeyong, chialing, siewhorng, suthesh (bro), steve ….it’s a surprise to hv the testimonials when I view my frenster profile.. it’s like… found out tat I’m being pampered again thru the words in the testimonials… tat’s very kind of u all spending the time to write it for me… hehe… appreciate it lots… thx for remembering…

Fifthly~~ mynn (my lenglui roomie), yingying (d blur blur gal tat is so cute… bestfren), liping, Elaine, Karen (lol… another Karen.. kailun la…hehe), juinhau (little boy), ang (doraemon ahpek), cheewei, weiloon, kai, Derek, songwei (886bro), Alvin (gorgor), soonming (papa), hocksheng (mama), chuiai (xiaomei), alan, Richard, cheewei2, yewchung… wow…. IT’S REALLY TOUCHING… A BIG SURPRISE INDEED… muacks… luv u all…. Pia-ing chek.. still help me do tis celebration… it leaves a memorable moment in my life.. it’s really hard to express hw much I appreciate u all in words.. I hope u all noe n understand tat I really do… =D.. without u all.. I might be banging myself wit all the computer books… haha… THX…. FRENSHIP 4EVA..


MYNN~~ aiyoyo… wana change my style yea??,,, haha…. Thx for the prezzy… I like it very much… whenever u gv me order to wear it.. I sure listen to u.. hahahha…. Thx for spending time to go n select yo…still remember u bought it when I was sleeping.. haha… u r really nice gal… really grateful to hv u as my roomie yo.. thx for the the celebration .. luv u lots.. muacks… miss yea….

ALVIN, SOON MING, ANG, CHEE WEI, WEI LOON, DEREK, KAI~~ hehe… thx for the doggy yo… well-wraped in the box.. hehe… kind of shock n surprise when i noe it’s a gift from 7 big boys.. haha… Nway.. arigato… for remembering tat I like soft toys.. kekekeke….

CHUI AI~~ my dear….. y u bek so early tat day leh??... aiya… tak sempat take photo wit u then u chao liao… sob.,.. .thx for so considerate when u buy the present.. hahaha… so cute…. The mickey mouse “fake” earring.. haha… cz I dun hv “holes” to put on earring on my ears.. hehehehhee…. Aiyo… kekek… n so ngam I can wear it wit mynn.. cz she has one pair too…hehehe… like it so much.. thx yea…. Muacks


ALAN, RICHARD, CHEE WEI2, YEWCHUNG~~ surprise surprise... so glad to noe u all... though u all dun really noe who i m.. yet u all spend ur precious time to celebrate my bday wit me... thx thx... esp cheewei2 n yewchung.. really nice to noe u two.. hehe... may our frenship remains lo... n i noticed tat all of us really hv fate.. haha... cz alwiz bump into each otehr..... thx for the sweetest memory tat u all gv to me during my bday..


TZER HAUR, FAX, KAH JUIN~~ hahahahaha…whenever I reminisce my bday… u 3 makes me laugh out loud… creative, funny yet mature type… haha… but too bad… it will only be replayed in my mind… nvr in the laptop or any players.. ahhahaha.. tzer haur… thx for the pillow yo… really nice to hug n lean on… hehe… fax.. thx for the idea of kept on wishing me happy mid autumn festival instead of happy bday.. haha… makes me wonder… wat la.. wat are these 3 big boys doing.. hahaha… kah juin? Owh… poor kah juin.. ur hengdai throw the hp to u n let u nego wit me.. hahaha… kesiannya.. anyway… me jz playing tat day la… hehe.. happy kacau-ing u all tat day too.. kekekek… anyway.. really grateful to hv u all as seniors.. nice one.. n playful once.. haha… appreciate..

ANONYMOUS~~ thx for the apple crumble cheesecake wor.. hehe n the recommendation of the shop to hv lunch tat day... cz ... WOW... the cup of drink really really really big.... haha... n will really b a memorable one for me.. hehe... n sorry tat i still cant remember ur name... anyway... gratitude is still there.. hehe

SEE SEONG, MANFRED, ZHIYONG ~~ aiyoyo.... wat la... ahha.... happy bday in tat language... make me nw stil cant remember hw it pronounce... haha... anyway... so happy n touched tat day... really cherish u three to b my best frens... miss u all so much... =)



N thx for those tat attended the zhongqiu gathering of recreational division… hehe…. Cz I had a surprise on tat nite too… being the MC wit ang… n hv a small small celebration… tat’s the 1st time hv tis cake which is mooncake wit the candle on it… so cute… there’re too many of u… u noe who u r…. I’m sincerely grateful to hv u all as frens… hehe.. frenship 4eva… happy mid autumn festival.. lol… ahhahahha

Whatever it is…

tat’s wat makes frenship so meaningful…

n friends so important in my life…

thru out thick n thin…

may our Frenship Remains And Never Can End…

Without u all…

I won’t b able to hv such a wonderful n memorable bday in tis 2006..

thx..

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

jz to lament...

haih~~
jz finish my first paper...
pem1016... pem ar~~
aduhai... gek sim kah.....
hv to get 50 over 100 in order to pass this stupid subject...
nvr got such a feel b4.... wana pass oso so hard...
wat the hell is tis...
hw i wish i can jz knock the wall n everything get settled..
but.... it's impossible to do so....
argh.... my brain gonna burst liao ar...
another paper coming...
another paper tat nid to memorise those horrible terrible vegetable formulas...
mama ar.....
i miss ur homecooked food...
i miss ur nagging ar.....
faster finish all this...
put an end for my final examintion period plz.....
put an end on my miserable life ar....

Friday, September 29, 2006

wat has happened?

Aduhai~~
someone plz tell me ar...
wat has happened to me/?
everyday so duo luo..
duo luo nvm.... cz i alwiz did tat when final comes.... use to ad...
but... y everyday so moody??
n wat geram me is tat ... i cant even find wat makes me so moody..
OMG~~~~~
hw can tis happen to me again/?
karen ar~~~
karen~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
where is the happy go lucky karen?
where is the cheerful karen/?
where is the karen tat scare of nth but dark n dolls??
where is the karen tat will smile to anyone who noes or dunnos her...?
where is the karen tat will kisiao with frens???
sob sob....
i wan karen bek~~`
i wan the karen wit so many family members...
i wan the karen tat makes her family proud of her...
haih......
long time no so pek cek liao...
somemore.. without any reason..
confirm.. 10 % confirm.. not bcz of studies...
cz.. i nvr bother bout it...
but y leh?????????
aduhai~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

help me ar........
i wan bek myself~

Sunday, August 27, 2006

click~~

click click click...
a movie tat touches every1's heart... a movie tat surprise every1 in the end of its story..
who would ever expect tat it's actually jz a dream...
n who would expect tat.. a dream can actually be so meaningful to a guy..
a weird dream tat actually carries out so many important message..
so many important message tat one shud think of them...

in the begining of the movie...
frankly... i felt a bit bored...
cz dun really noe wat it wana brings out..
n when it's the scene where michael enter the department named "beyond"..
wow.. it's really beyond the imaginary...
great name... suitable one.. hehe..

n then only i slowly get attracted by the movie..
a "nth special" remote control... which named universal remote control..
can be so stylo... it really controls everything...
even the volume of the barking of a doggy.. cool..
n it can even hv different language.. jz like a translater...
n oso fast 4ward watever scene in ur life tat u get iritated or bored of...
wat a waste tat it is only possible to happen in tat movie.. haha..

however... isit really so nice to fast 4ward ur chapters of life??
for me.. i think it's jz taking it 4 granted...
it's jz a short cut to success..
mayb coz i love the process of doing things... even get iritated... i'll still conquer all of those process with my determination...
coz.. one might miss out some important stuffs if he or she take the short cut way in getting things done..
tat's my POV la..

family, love, work, life......
tis movie really picture out the life in our modern city nw..
ppl tends to forget wat is the purpose of their life..
though in the movie it's michael wana let his children n wife to hv better life..
but... has he ever thot of... wat the family wan actually?..
material stuffs? or love n care of a husband n papa..
ppl these days lack of companionship.. tat's wat i notice ..

even my sis's puppy, timbo, make me feel so too..
every morning, she'll bark softly to wake us up..
then trying to get our attention..
all she wants is jz a glance from u... or a "sayang" from u...
but... too bad... all bcoz of work... cannot be late..
they left her alone in tat hse.. all alone..
ppl might think tat i'm crazy...
but i'm feeling sad for her.. especially whenever i saw tat situation by myself when i'm in spore..
i'll hear the sobbing sound of her.. looking at her papamama(my sis n bro in law) leaving the hse..
even puppy will feel so... wat do u think for those children??
n try to link tis to those old folks..
it's kind of sad to find out tat children n old folks spend more time with their maid than their parents or children..

hmm.. tat day i jz found out tat my dad aged a lot...
looking at him... my heart hurts...
i felt tat i've such a long time dint look at his face... n tat makes me feel ashame..
ashame bcoz.. i dint spare enuf time with my parents..

sometimes.. slow dwn ur beat in ur life...
it wont waste much of ur time...
jz observe ur surrounding... ppl around u.. trees around u.. things around u...
u'll find out tat many things hv changed..
n u'll find tat u actually hv missed out lots of things...
get things done step by step...
dun detour to avoid "ma2 fan2"/ obstacles in ur life..
fast 4ward may not be the best way to settle the problem..
live out ur own life...
enjoy it


applause to "click"

Sunday, August 20, 2006

gu gong

gu gong

11/9 - A date where ppl lose their love ones in tat tragedy.. so do i.. but not in tat tragedy... i lose my beloved gu gong..

gu gong.. a determine, strong, kind-hearted, caring ... husband of ma kim, father of three children, grandfather of five adorable kids, n i treat him as my grandfather too.. so do my sisters... my father?? he treats him as his father too..

still remember the handkerchief game in taman sentosa?? on tat garden, there's one man sitting on the round wooden chair.. playing wit three sisters: wendy, tina n karen, then the three sisters will listen to his story of handkerchief attentively; whenever u enter tat hse, u'll c a man welcoming u with a warm smile n ask u to hv a seat wit him..then he'll ask his dear n loving wife to prepare some drinks n food for u; in the evening, tending the garden especially the grass of the garden bcum his job; cats love him.. he will spare food for them....

this man is my dearest gu gong, the person tat i respect him as my grandpa, tat i respect him as being able to overcome the obstacles in his life, the person tat i respect him in facing the deathmaster...

still remember?? i told u tat i got highest marks in my class?? your smile pictured everything in your mind. the proud, the sactifaction, the happiness in ur heart... remember? wendy, tina n me love to listen to ur handkerchief story.. i miss those days.. the time we discussing about our school life, discussing my father's life, chit-chating....

gu gong.. u enter my dreamland for the second time... the first time, u look rather tired, sick; however, i'm glad to c u in my dream for this time as u look happy, healthier; i dunno wat it means..

it's been one year plus tat u've gone.. blinks.. i thot u were still here.. but u were not.. i miss u... n so do the others..

the blog tat i've written for u when u entered my dream for the 2nd time..

today~ the day where papa mama n other uncles n aunties prepare for ur death anniversary..
once again... u gather all of them together.. united..
i hv alwiz blived tat ur spirit is still here... forever wit us...
again...i'm sorry for not b able to attend..
i wish i could.. but i cant...

a simple stalk of lily...(tat wendy had helped me to buy it for u)
i wish it can represent my sincere, my gratitude, my miss towards u..
gugong.. i miss u

Saturday, August 12, 2006

cyber life

fuyoh~~
surprisingly... it's ored the last day of midterm break..
still remember my days in malacca campus...
keep on imagining my life if i were to study in cyberjaya..
n dreams come true... it's real..
i've been studying in tis so call "desert", "forest", "gou3 bu4 la1 shi3, niao1 bu4 sheng1 dan4" for two months plus...

adapting new lifestyle is not as easy as wat i think...
sometimes.. obstacles make me weaker n weaker till i feel like giving up...
once again... sickness found me...
attack my throat, my voicebox,.. once again.. nightmare begins..
kind of frustrated.. but wat to do...
again n again... things happen.. not in the way i want...

wanting to let go.... let go of the stubborness, the stupidess..
karen~ stop it!! put an end on it.. it's enough...
let it be a lovable, sweetest memory of urs but not one tat will torture ur life..
especially ur beautiful campus life...
sometimes step a step bhind will let u c a clearer view, let u noe more than wat u expect....
things change...

gladful tat i've found another gang of frens tat i share my sweet n sour with...
gladful tat i've them to guide me thru my thick n thin...
the first time i make sandwiches for so many ppl....
though it's only two piece of bread sandwiched tuna n eggs, tat's wat i want to share with them...
my care, my love, my sincere... nevertheless.. my gratitude..
then



~~the steamboat day~~











have fun yea??..
hehe.. of course...
though living in different house... doesn't mean we cant hv fun together... :P
tis is the way... we live out our life~~
n nvr forget... the next day.... after the steamboat day..
thx to ying ying n kelmynn.... thx for the great dinner... =)
preparing my dinner b4 i go for my dj interview.. thx yea... muacks..
then~~ the first birthday celebration we held together...
for 886 er song song...
it's hard to gather every1... but we still be able to make it...
=) i really wish tat all of those tat present.. enjoy tat nite... esp the bday guy...
n thx for those tat help to buy the drinks, cake, present...
thx yea...
wat bout my "Active" life??
though i'm still tat active... jz like the "me" in malacca campus..
but seems like.. i've totally changed... in the sense of.. hmmm... wat i join...
i wonder y too.... wat i do nw totally different from wat i expect...
surprisingly... i'm in cls... the club tat i alwiz forbid myself from joining in when i'm in malacca..
but... i've to b very very proud to say tat...
in the deepest side of my heart..
there's one voice saying tat...
"u've chosen the rite path... u've did the rite thing... keep it up..."
undoubtedly, i did learnt many things tat i nvr learnt b4...
n tat amazed me too...
n so... i step into tat big family...
from the orientation camp-->till orientation nite-->then the previous training camp...
i gained a lot from those events... it can b said tat they conquer almost all my cyber life..
n nw i choose to gv the trust n love to it also... =)
my dj dream comes true...

i'm nw in the mandarin slot...
thx QQ, eric, zhe hao n other senior dj..
thx for the guidance.. n thx for the patience n encouragement as well..
n sorry for bringing alot of troubles.... if got any... hopefully none :P
hoping for the better....
i'll still strive hard... =) for a brighter future.. hehe
after months... tis is my first blog in cyberjaya....
tml will be convocation.. jz nw chat with seniors...
he said tat he's listening to permata dunia....
memories sliding thru his mind....
n the same thing happen to me when i try to imagine my convo day...
though still hv 4 years to go...
i've got a weird feeling tat i dunno hw to describe in words..
a mix feelings tat i nvr had...
though my memories might not be competable as the senior's...
but... it's owned by me..
the precious one tat will forever be in my mind till my last breath...
hereby... i wish all my seniors tat gonna graduate tml or sunday.....
all the best in the future undertakings...
jiayou...jiayou oh....
=)

Friday, July 14, 2006

~~still friends~~

宇 恒 - 依 然 是 朋 友
Yu Heng - Yi Ran Shi Peng You(Yu Heng - Still Friends)
情 人 节 的 前 一 天 , 他 离 开 你 身 边
Qing ren jie de qian yi tian / Ta li kai ni shen bian
(The day before Valentine's Day, he left you)

却 剩 下 你 到 至 今 的 想 念,
Que sheng xia ni dao zhi jin de xiang nian
(And you're still missing him today)

那 一 夜 我 陪 着 你 , 你 哭 了 一 整 夜
Na yi ye wo pei zhe ni / Ni ku le yi zheng ye
(That night I accompanied you, You cried for a whole night)

你 是 否 知 道 我 对 他 一 样 很 想 念
Ni shi fou zhi dao wo dui ta yi yang hen xiang nian
(Do you know that I'm missing him too)
直 到 有 一 天 我 和 他 碰 面
Zhi dao you yi tian / Wo he ta peng mian
(Till one day, I met him)

在 那 间 我 们 常 去 的 咖 啡 店
Zai na jian wo men chang qu de ka fei dian
(in the coffee shop that we always go)
才 知 道 有 些 感 受
Cai zhi dao you xie gan shou
(Then only I know, there're some feelings)

我 和 他 谁 都 不 曾 说 出
Wo he ta shui dou bu ceng shuo chu kou
(that neither I nor he has ever told)

我 们 之 间 隐 藏 了 什 么
Wo men zhi jian yin cang le shen me
(What is hidden between us?)

除 了 我 自 己 没 人 懂
Chu le wo zi ji mei ren dong
(No one but I know it)
可 是 你 , 你 怎 么 说
Ke shi ni / Ni zen me shuo
(But you, what do you think?)

你 知 道 后 是 不 是 从 此 避 开 我
(Will you leave me forever if you find out?)

哦 , 我 一 样 难 过
O... Wo yi yang nan guo
(Oh... I'm upset too)

多 希 望 我 们 不 曾 相 识 过
Duo xi wang wo men bu ceng xiang shi guo
(How I hope that we've never known each other)
才 知 道 有 些 感 受
Cai zhi dao you xie gan shou
(Then only I know, there're some feelings)

我 和 他 谁 都 不 曾 说 出
Wo he ta shui dou bu ceng shuo chu kou
(that neither I nor he has ever said out)

我 们 都 是 最 好 的 朋 友
Wo men dou shi zui hao de peng you
(We are best friends)

谁 会 有 勇 气 去 开
Shui hui you yong qi qu kai kou
(Who has the courage to say?)

不 在 乎 不 再 难 过
Bu zai hu / Bu zai nan guo
(I don't care and don't feel sad anymore)

我 们 还 有 好 大 好 大 的 借 口 喔~
Wo men hai you hao da hao da de jie kou
(We still have a big excuse)

故 事 的 最 后
Gu shi de zui hou
(At the end of the story)

我 们 都 不 曾 失 去 过 什 么
Wo men dou bu ceng shi qu guo shen me
(We didn't lose anything)

Saturday, May 06, 2006

life is short but beautiful.. what do u think??

exam coming soon~~ yet..i'm still ponder around others' blog to find interesting writings tat draw my attention...
i stopped at one particular blog... i was inspired by the piece below..
not only tat.. i was inspired by the comments too.. hehe...
n so.. i copy it into my blog.. n would like to share with my frens..
"All the things that has been said makes a lot of sense..each question has a lesson to be learnt.."
enjoy it... there may be other answers for them... =)

here u go..

The first question is “What is the nearest thing to us in this world?”
Some might say our parents, our teachers, our friends. All this may be the correct answer, but the bestanswer is the closet thing to us is Death. It is known that all living things will eventually die. And on the Day of Judgment, we will receive our blessing for our deeds. To those who are granted the passage to heaven,then that person is truly a devoted servant of God.
Life on earth is nothing but a distraction and a test of our devotion to God. So in a sense, although we are busy with work and other worldly things, do not forget God, for He is around us.
comment.. Death is the nearest but yet so far away.When a person have the most luckiest life of all, Deathis very near to him/her as he/she had no intention to be living out of his/her body. Bu Death for a person who is in debts, broken family, with a broken heart everything in this life seems so cruel and not a single air came to him/her lungs to fill up the empty tanks, DEATH indeed is faraway.
He will have to decide whether to suicide or to livewith it to be optimistic..but either way death is so far..if he dies no one will thank him no one will listen again why he dies…there remains onl criticism,rage,confusions,sadness and not one person will remember to listen why he dies..i said death is faraway because death is a chance for us to live again in another lifeform/space/non-existent..there are many legends and myths you can apply on which ever you believe in but still it’s another chance.but if he suicide, he will be judge, he will be punished and he have no chance to prove that he only chooses his path to die and no one is on his side..sometimes our own decisions are not meant to be our choice..

The second question is “What is the furthest thing from us in this world?”
Some might say China, the moon, the sun and the stars. Again these answers are correct, but the best answeris The Passing of Time.
We will never be able to turn back time no matter what thus we should make the bestof our days and we should not spend our days doing things which are not beneficial. I guess this is really true, that many of us do not use the time we have to the best of our abilities. I think we all should allocate time doing things that matters most, such as studying, working and completing whatever tasks that we have. Once the time is gone, it is no use asking for more time or to regret for not completing our tasks when we had the time.
however, i agree with another comment that ..it’s our past actions.what we did, we cannot undo, what we aid we cannot withdrawn.If you said the answer is time pass,then when we sleep, time too passes faster than anything we have used our time on..it’s not beneficial to sleep as it waste our time..yes it is our body condition which needs it but have you ever think of if we use that 6 hours of sleep in 1 year..well you elaborate it.
Actions leave a scar and some may not ever heal.permanent ink stamp on the lifeof a child, a person who have grown still carries it through all his life.
Even when he is engae with a new life, family,neighbourhood…it’s still there.we gave others chance and others gave us chance to right the wrongs but whatever or however hard you tried,some inks are permanent.That’s why it’s the furthest…


The third question is “What is the Biggest Thing in this World?”
Some answers are mountains, the earth and the sun. But the most accurate answer is our Lust. Humans have been given a heart but it is not used to gain knowledge, we are given eyes but it’s not used to witness the creations of God Almighty, we have ears but it is not used to hear God’s verses. In fact, we are like animals, if not more ignorant and careless, and for these people there is only one place, which is Hell.
Our carelessness and ignorant can be attributed to our lust. Therefore we should always control our lustso that it does not overwhelm us and also to avoid us being categorized as those who will suffer on the Judgement Day. So from today onwards, let’s make a stand not to give in to our lust easily and be misled.
again... here's another acceptable comment..
The biggest thing in life is our HEART.
we can forgive no matter how or what is it if we love someone.we can hold a crime of our love ones with our heart yet we still love them.
we human can even give the last penny in the pocket to our love ones and left ourself to starve.we might not be able to give them happinessbut we stll love them as we always will.
A mother will love her child even he is useless and only eats and sleeps no matter how many years or decades it has been.
A child will always lovehis/her parents even when after all what they have given is scar for all her life.
A lover is always calculating the terms and the gifts with their love ones but yet they still love them…
That’s why i said HEART is the biggest thing in life, it can hold the very truth of someone, hold lies and deceive, hold fears and bravery, hold love and hatred, hold happiness and sadness, it can even hold lust.

The fourth question is “What is the Heaviest burden in the world?”
The answer is not steel, elephants and mountains. The correct answer is Trust and Integrity. All of God's creations, be it the sky, earth and mountains have rejected the trust given to them and this responsibility now falls into the hands of humans, which is neither intelligent nor responsible. Today, we can see humans caught up in the rat race to be a leader without realizing their own strengths and weakness. Therefore many have failed to make good leaders, blinded by riches and their fantasies, therefore unable to distinguish the good from the bad resulting in the failure to uphold the burden of Trust placed on us. Try to imagine a world without trust. Try to imagine having friends but none of them can be trusted. How we do turn to in times of turbulence? That is why in my humble opinion, trust and being trustworthy is very important.

yet... another comment~~~ The heaviest burden in life is LOVE…when we love someone we will do everything no matter what it takes for our love ones willingly or unwillingly, but we still do it for them.Because we love them…we will kill for protection, steal for survival, race for pride, abandon richest of life for pure happiness of him/her.
Love is a burden, but you would said when love is a burden, it’s not love at all.
Do you abandon you kids when they burden you?Do you abandon your job when they burden you?Do you abandon your riches when they burden you like the creeps of death and robbers smirking at you?
NO you dont..because you love them,you love you kids, you love your job, you love your riches. Love is the heaviest afterall

The fifth question is “What is the Lightest (easiest) thing in the world?”
The lightest thing in life is our pride.. pride can make you fly upon the highest building. pride makes you forgot you are only human and that you have weight. Makes you think that you can fly and no one can stop you.
If we have pride we have wings because we have belief.
Because we already built in our hearts to think that we can do almost anything as we are proud and we never will look at the flowers aside the street. we will never look again how hard life was.. we tend to forget what is humble.

The sixth question is “What is the Sharpest Object in the World?”
The sword might be sharp, but the sharpest thing is our tongues and words we utter. Because of our words,someone might easily take offence and feel hurt be it our parents, our spouse and even our friends.
Be mindful of whatwe say and also not to hurt anyone with harsh words. All of us should be mindful of what we utter each day.We shouldn’t slander others, nor should we tell lies. our words are the sahrpest of all things. It can kill not life but a heart...

Life on earth is nothing but a distraction and a test to our devotion to God...
life is short but beautiful..
live it to the fullest...
=)

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Never Gone

in tis 3rd trimester of mine... many things happen...
both the good n bad ones...
flashback.... all vividly in my mind... the precious moments.. n the hardest time i hv gone thru....
gonna go to cyberjaya soon... in anotehr three weeks...
busying with my revision, i spare sum time to write tis blog... jz to voice out sum of my words tat hide in the deepest part of my heart...
sumtimes.. it's easier to say wat u feel in writing than saying it to sum1 in face...
however... sumtimes writing might let others more confused.. n then lead to misunderstanding...
anyway.. i choose writing as my option... n i choose serenity...
serenity is a feeling u gain once u hv silenced ur mind... tat's the only time when u can put urself in others' position...
no matter wat... tis is jz a simple blog for my friends b4 final exam..
i like a song very much... as it has meaningful lyrics tat touches my heart... tat describes wat i think... enjoy it... n these r for all of u....



Never Gone

I really miss you
There's something that I gotta say
The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close Everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe
I will see you somewhere down the road again
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close Everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

Saturday, April 01, 2006

wanting to let go..

a sad thing about life is when u meet someone n fall in love, only to find out in the end tat it was never meant to be n tat u hv wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. if he isn't worth it now, he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.. let go....

this is part of an article tat draws my attention... a unique one...
jz would like to share with my fellow frens...