woke up from my agony

after some days of drowning in my life....
haha....
finally i manage to woke myself up...
whew.... this is not me...
hehe....

gain back d c0lours....
gain back d energy...
gain back d confidence...
yeah~~
may god bless me....
jiayou jiayou

d true me.... disappointed?

dazing... dreaming... sleeping...
other than that... i dunno wat i can do...
trying to hide myself from everyone...
but seems like it's impossible..
since avoiding it's nvr d best way to solve problem...

yet... when time get tough...
when someone get weaker...
they tend to do so...
n it's sth tat can nvr b denied...

wana share it out...
but dunno how to start it too...
i'm a coward actually...
a coward tat dare not face d frankest truth deep in my heart...

hiding at one corner...
lying to myself tat i can do it...
avoiding my sweetest mother's nag...
heading myself towards agony....
then blaming myself for doing nth....

wat has happened to me lately?
my mind is totally blank...
or in a mess??
i also couldn't find it out...
all i noe is...
helping others in need to solve their prob...
though i'm in agony...
ya... right@@
ppl find it funny... bet u feel it too...
but at least.. it makes me feel ease as ppl around me still living thru d obstacles..
n tat's wat i want..

but when can i solve my prob...?
though i'm delighted tat someone has made me smile at last...
someone has finally let me noe tat i'm nvr alone...
as there's alwz support n advice from them..
thx...
but still i'm d only one tat can pull myself out from tis..

i'm really grateful to hv u at tis time around...
at least i feel d comfort...
i feel d warm...
tat i'm nt facing tis prob alone...
cz i'm actually a timid gal... :(

??

sometimes i really dunno wat i shud do to please them...
not to say to please them actually...
just...
do the thing tat they nvr suspect...

i wonder y....
it's jz a news on going bek would be so hurt to me...
mayb it's bcz i emphasis too much on it...
n it makes me shatters my heart nw...

thinking bek home should b sth tat please them and please me too...
making everyone delighted as d gal tat nvr been home so long time
has finally spare out her time to be prepared to c the family....
yet...
when d news of heading bek home for Xmas was broke off jz nw...
doesn't seem to please them at all..
but being suspected on....

i feel pain in heart...
finding out tat i really dunno who i m...
n wat i shud do...
finding out tat tis is not wat i want...
i've been harsh in words jz nw...
as i'm being hurt by d words...
d words tat chase away all my desire n dreams to bek home...

blind vs mean

she...

she thot he'll dry her tears
when she's scared...
she thot that he'll comfort her tears
when she's worried...
she thot that he'll be the one who will nvr break d promises of wat she wants..
but all and all it's all lies...
he's a liar....

heart shatters...
tears splashes...
hope vanishes...

d cruelest fact which spoils her mood whole day...
is when she found out tat she's been stamped on d eyes...
nvr notice tat she's chosen d wrong fren...
keeping him as her dearest fren yet being fooled...

he noes wat she wants...
he noes wat she emphasis on....
he noes almost everything of her....
but still he did tat to her...

not tat she has nvr made confirmation...
again n again...
day n night... she find him to ask for d final answer...
does he really able to fulfill tat promise//
n without hesitation...
the answer from d guy is "YES"

n so it's proven again....
she's blind...
or shud we say tat he's mean...

nvr ever make promises where u can nvr fulfil..
making a promise is as easy as just utter out a statement...
but keeping it or breaking it will change d whole image of urs to the others...
so think of it...
if u cant do it...then dun simply say... "SURE"
nvr ever make promises where u can nvr fulfil

pain pain..

jz bek from McD...
finish my test at 930pm... wat a stupiak paper.. which makes myself such a fool ...
dunno wat i'm writing...
haih.... watever tat is done is being done...
wat can i do??

tml pms assignment due date pulak...
then lots more assignments coming up...
it's all cramp together... holly shit...
hw i wish i can hv a rest....
miss u my dear........ dream....

For a fren like u

dare not to face the reality??
don't worry... i'm here..
dare not to shout out wat is in ur mind??
don't worry... i wont force u...

what is it being ur fren??
is nt alwz be with u...
is nt only to laugh with u...
but whenever u r afraid, i'll b brave for u...
whenever u feel alone, i'm jz a phone call away...
whenever u fall, i'll catch u..
whenever u r sad, i'll do anything to make u glad...
i may not alwz noe wat to do or say...
cz i've my limit too..
but i'll help in anyway....

so...
despite the distance between us...
for a fren like u...
i'm willing to share the time i hv...
to not only touch ur heart...
but also ur soul...

jz alwz remember...
no matter wat happens...
i'm still here when every1 walks out from ur world...

ya... it's time

somehow...
tis is my own promises...
once it's being said out... it muz be done..

made up my mind and step out a step..
i noe it's silly but somehow tis is wat i've decided..
so i mz face it..

i've been searching for a comfort zone...
i remembered one senior told me b4 tat when one left his or her comfort zone..
one will lost.... i think tat's wat i m few days ago...

though my emotions is not tat stable yet...
i'll still collapse...
i'll still fed up...
i'll still hv a bit of regret...
but i'll be tough... tough enuf to do it all over again...

searching for the comfort zone of mine...
striving for the mission impossible... =)
trying watever tat i can.. watever tat i hv to stand up again...

thx for the phone call yesterday.. my fren...
it's not just a simple call...
i learn a lot from it...
i nvr regret sharing all d things with u...
i nvr regret spending bout 7 hours in tat call...
cz in tat 7 hours... i feel d care n luv from a fren...
n d moral support tat i'm alwz search for....
n tat's wat i can nvr find it these few days...
(n sorry to my roomie... =D thx for being so undestandng..)

to all...
dun worry...
i'm bek to me...
no more cctv...
no more dragging...
no more wasting...

welcome you... my dear...
u're bek... karen
n i blive.. u can do it

crap-ing~~

morning morning~~~
i woke up at 530am tis morning...

oh my....
it's been a long time i dint wake up so early ad..
hehe.... :P
n early in the morning got one msn msg from my long lost contact fren....
so happy~~!!!
as they are my frens in malacca tat time tat spent the time together to strive hard in SPAIN DANCE!!!
but..... it's all bcz of the busy routine work....
cant meet them up~~~ :(
n tis afternoon my bestfrens all come KL...
n once again cz of the hectic life...
aiyaya..... so sad... cant go meet them up...

aduhai....
miss them so much...
miss my malacca life when i busy practicing my dance though hv to wear tat stupiak high heel..
leg will very pain... but all d pain is worth it... cz i got to noe so many great frens at tat time..
miss my SAB life... though many unhappy thingy happened tat time...
but it's sweet n sour la... =D
no matter wat... they are still the one tat spend the secondary school time with me...
n they are still the one tat i'll miss...
miss Puan Norhuda, Puan Norasyikin, Puan Rashidah, Puan Fong...
hehe.... :P

kla... i oso dunno wat i'm writing.. hehe...
jz simply write.. cz wana waste my time:P
bek to reality lo~~

jiayou jiayou

standing in front of the mirror...
looking at the person inside the mirror..
it's exactly the same person that i'm familiar with..
but why i feel like i'm a stranger to it?
it's like even i myself also couldn't read her mind..

one hour of talk with the academic advisor...
two hours of talk with my dearest mummy...
three hours of lectures with two respective persons...

i'm sorry if i've been harsh to you in words..
i don't mean it..
i'm sorry if i've been disappointing you in actions...
i dont' mean it...
i'm sorry if i've been rude to you in manners..
i dont mean it....
i'm sorry if i've been rebellious to you in asking for help...
i don't mean it...

i've lost my mind...
never been so lost before...
and i dunno hw to take it...
and so... somehow... i'm avoiding to face the fact...
and that's why i've been doing things that i nvr did b4...

trying my best to stand up from the fall...
struggling hard to gain back the confidence from the foe...
no doubt, i'm very scared now...
tears flow dwn my cheeks all the time...
i'm getting weaker n weaker...
how i wish i can fight back the "me" that i used to be as soon as possible..
as i hate the "me" now...

time is all i need..
and i wish that i've the support and care from you...
but not the nag that i fear most...
don't worry... i'll do as wat u said...
it's not a big deal of falling down...
but most importantly... i want you to know that i noe wat i'm doing...

more than just a fren

She’s searched around the world from north to south and east to west..
Day and night, in search of a fren bcz she only wanted the best..
Tis fren of hers must be sincere n kind…
Tis fren of hers must nt be a guy…:P
But tis fren of hers must be happy and alwz hv her in his mind..
Someone who is happy and full of cheer..
Someone who noes hw to hv lots of fun and when time get rough… wont run…

She’s blessed tat she’s found tis fren…
He makes her life whole again when “he” turn her dwn…
He makes her noe tat life will not be so meaningful if she do nt change her mind..
He makes her appreciate all he did for her, when he picked her up, and said everything is going to be fine.
“I luv u my fren” she said…
N things are nvr be the same again..

“I truly cherish u… till suddenly I found out tat for wat u did… there’s a reason bhind it..
U r so special to me.. n u had make a difference in my life… or shud I say.. my whole world..
No matter hw often u talk or hw close u r to me… I jz wanted to ask u,” y u make tat decision?”
N for tat u lied to me…
My dam crack.. n so I burst …
I dun understand… I couldn’t understand…

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you…
With the accompaniment of the moon and the glittering stars,
Finally it gaves me the bravery to say tis out…
WHY?
U r so disappointing me… as u dare not to answer the Q face to face wit me…
However those who cannot change their mind cannot change anything…
At least… I got the answer in ur eyes..
The stupidest fool I m in ur eyes…”

But the stupidest fool found out tat she is really such a fool after she get to noe the fact…
The fact tat she actually not only treating him as a fren…
But more than wat she wana be..
But never what he wana her to be….
But she’s not clear… not clear of herself too…
N not clear of wat is in her mind…
But she couldn’t shout out wat she feels too…
For the sack of everyone…

Daring herself to really make up her mind?
Daring him to change the decision made in his mind?
Daring herself to figure out all the unwanted possibilities in his mind?
Or daring him to figure out all the unwanted possibilities in others’ mind?

A decision maker… a co-operative party of the decision maker…. A fren in need…. A heart in sin….
Things changed… without expecting…
But can she change too??????
Perhaps the answer is a NO…
Losing him will be her greatest regret and so…
choosing to avoid is wat she doing nw..
Choosing to keep a distance with him is wat she can think nw…
This is the rules of the game…
N she’ll follow the rules…
As she doesn’t wan to exceed the boundaries…
As she doesn’t wan to lose him…
And afraid of losing him

Her dearest fren in this world…

bet

these few days so cham... so cham ar...
feel sick... sick..
consult doctor ad... hv to eat those medicine... sob sob...
mama... i'm suffering... both mentally, physically....
haih haih haih....

luckily got frens to cheer me up... (jian dau shi tou bu... :P all the bets)
hehe....
n i oso very notty...
take all the bets.. kekekkee..
the latest one.?? yaya... a really big challenge.. OMG...
cant blive tat i actually accepted tat bet.. :P
here it comes....

歌手：古巨基 专辑：劲歌新曲金曲精选

(第一章:天大的爱)

爱你我管不了是祸未想过是为何能爱著你苦也未去躲

有著我便有著你真爱是永不死穿过喜和悲跨过生和死

see me fly,i'm singing in the sky
假使我算神话因你创更愉快

凭我彻底的勇气爱是最大权利不理场面不伟大我共你始终同游生死
还有哪一种结尾花光一切在乎你没有想过太多我只需要你

恋爱大过天想不想也日夜怀念连甜梦也不够甜
怎黱闪同学始终会遇见

(第二章:讲情)

shall we talk?shall we talk?就当重新手拖手去上学堂

我带著情意一丝丝凄怆许多说话都仍然未讲
纵隔别遥远怀念对方悲伤盼换上再会祈望

越问越伤心明明无馀地再过问明明知道衷心一吻会有更亲厚质感

我说过要你快乐让我担当失恋的主角改写了剧情无言地飘泊

我想哭你可不可以暂时别要睡陪著我像最初相识我当时未怕累
但如果但如果说下去或者

我有说话未曾讲你这刹那在何方
如何能连系上与你再相伴在旁如晨光

(第三章:日月星辰风雨潮)

太阳星晨即使变灰暗心中记忆一生照我心

我的爱如潮水爱如潮水将我向你推紧紧跟随
爱如潮水它将你我包围

冷冷雨没焦点因找不到你冷冷雨低泣彷佛要等你经过

答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎

风继续吹不忍远离心里亦有泪不愿流泪望著你

各种空虚冷冷冷吹起吹起风里梦
过去的心火般灼热今天已变了冰冻

来又如风离又如风或世事通通不过是场梦
人在途中人在时空相识也许不过擦过梦中

就算你壮阔胸膛不敌天气两鬓斑白都可认得你

(第四章:两个人)

别离没有对错要走也解释不多现代说永远已经很傻
随著那一宵去火花以消逝不可能付出一生那黱多

也许相爱很难就难在其实双方各有各寄望怎黱办
要单恋都难受太大的礼会内疚却也无力归还

darling i want you 你竟不知默默向风呆企去等心中戏子
曾无限次欲话我知却也停止

同是天涯沦落人在这伤心者通道上同行也许不必知道我是谁
无谓令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你

如何可以不爱他莫非生命只配有一个他

到了没法相处再去记他好处凭回忆制造这自欺的笑话

随时日在远飞难舍弃每次看见冷冬到访的你
那年冬天两心遇上没逃避

(第五章:浪情歌)

可以笑的话不会哭可相知的心那怕追逐
可惜每次遇上热爱没法使我感觉我终於遇上幸福

来忘掉错对来怀念过去曾共渡患难日子总有乐趣
不相信会绝望不感觉到踌躇在美梦里竞争每日拼命进取

世界将我包围誓死都一齐壮观得有如悬崖的婚礼
也许生於世上无重要作为仍有这种真爱会留低

(第六章:神爱世人)

祈求天地放过一双恋人怕发生的永远别发生
从来未顺利遇上好景降临如何能重拾信心

神啊救救我吧一把年纪了一个爱人都没有
孤独是可怜的如果没爱过人生是黑白的

僧人都不喜爱我神你不欢喜我迫我入了魔
爱侣几百万谁料我蠢得竟可重覆去犯错

(完结章:好心一早放开我)

吻下来豁出去这吻别似覆水再来也许要天上团聚

眼泪还是留给天抚慰你是前度何必听我吠

别再做情人做只猫做只狗不做情人做只宠物至少可爱迷人
和你不瞅不睬最终只会成为敌人

好心一早放开我好心一早放开我重头努力也坎坷
统统不要好过来年岁月那黱多为继续而继续没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚不如自己亲手割破

谁得到过愿放手曾精彩过愿挽留
年年月月逝去越是觉得深爱你

Say U luv me

Song name: Say U Love me
Artist: Jason (Iron Bamboo) and Lara (nanquan mama)

Say that you love me Say that you care ～

Lara: 遇到对的人 是种缘分
Meeting the right person , is a kind of fate

我不得不承认 女生还是需要有分寸
I had to admit, girls do need some discretion

你需要去瞄准 你要的人
You need to aim (target) at the person you want

不再被动的等 送上嘴唇变成你的人
Do not wait passively. Send up your kiss and make him your man.


Jason:我认识一个女孩 她天真活泼可爱
I know a girl. She is naive, lovely and active.

在等待 有个人可以给她一身三千宠爱
And she's waiting for somebody to give her three thousand of love

不需要很有钱 不需要很帅
No need to be very rich nor very handsome

她脾气古怪 有时候包容有时候你必须忍耐
Her temper is weird and sometimes you need to forgive, sometimes you need to hold on.

为什么 她竟然爱上他
Why? She fell in love with him

她到底在 想什么
What's on her mind?

她是否忘了帅哥不能爱
Did she forget that she can not love a handsome boy?

是什么 让她乱了方寸
What has made her lost her mind?

不知道该做什么
I don't know what should I do

我想说这怎么可能
I want to say, How is it possible?

她舍得 舍弃自己的尊严与爱好
She's willing to give up her ego and liking

女追男的游戏 一点都不害臊
The game of girl making the first move, it's not embarassing at all.

一天到晚在他身边又吵又闹
From morning to night she is noisy beside him

只为了能够被他瞪一眼就好
Just to attract his attention

看她在这边 而他在那边
Seeing her at here and him at there

而她想被他捧在手心上面
And she wanted to be loved by him

而他装做视而不见 脑袋中却浮现
However, he pretends not to see her, but his head keep thinking...

眼前尽是她在微笑的画面
All the pictures of she smiling.

而她说
And she says...

Say that you love me Say that you care ～

(就是还是更要有缘分 遇到对的人 看他的脸孔)
(Fate is still very needed. Meeting the one and look at his face)

Say that you love me Say that you care ～

(在个都会的东方转身 变成你的人)
( Turning at the north of a city, becoming yours)

Jason:重头来过 要快乐不要难过 不要谎言要承诺
Starting over, preferring happiness than sorrow, preferring promise than lies

她和他的爱情是否懒惰
Has the love between them become lazy

就算有不安定的因素随时出没
Even if the unknown factor can appear anytime

她也能排除万难和他一起度过
She will overcome everything and be together with him

ok 这 慢慢倡动倡动 后外面顺风顺风 吹到的心中心中 尽是无限的感动
Ok. This will go slowly, the wind outside will blow inside the heart, and fill it with unlimited of flattering

他多次去注意她任何的一举一动 才发现自己早已不小心掉入其中
He occasionally noticed her move, and finally realize he has fall within

而他知道 我想是他知道 所有她的一切 他都知道
However he knew, I suppose he knew, everything about her.

他感到 他若知道倍高兴 心里早久想把她抱紧
He feels that if he know she will be happy, he wanted to hug her tight long ago

不管未来艰难筵隙太多 只管现在能够相爱再说
No matter how hard it is in future, what really matter is loving each other now.

将一起完成的事情太多 就怕时间不够 而她说
There are too many things that need to achieve together, fearing that time is not enough, and she says...

~~prank~~

歌曲：恶作剧
Song name: Prank (Practical Joke)

歌手：王蓝茵
Artist: Wang Lan Yin

专辑：恶作剧之吻原声带
Album: It started with a Kiss OST

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
I could not find a better reason to stop all these intimacy
"wo zhao bu dao hen hao de yuen yin qu zhu dang zhe yi qie de qing mi"

这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
The feeling is too special. I apologise that I could not explain.
"zhe gan jue tai qi yi wo bao qian bu neng shuo ming"

我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
I believe the meaning of love, and miracle might happen
"wo xiang xin zhe ai qing de ding yi qi ji fa sheng ye bu yi ding"

风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息
The comfortable and clear wind might bring good news.
"feng wen rou de qing xi ye xu piao lai hao xiao xi"


一切新鲜有点冒险
Everything is so fresh, it might contain some risk.
"yi qie xin xian you dian mao xian"

请告诉我怎么走到终点
Somebody tells me how to reach to finishing line.
"qing gao shu wo zhen me zou dao zhong dian"

没有人了解
Nobody understand.
"mei you ren liao jie"

没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋
Nobody has the love that similar to me and the stranger.
"mei you ren xiang wo he me sheng ren de ai luen"


我想我会开始想念你
I think I will begin to miss you.
"wo xiang wo hui kai shi xiang lian ni"

可是我刚刚才遇见了你
But I just saw you.
"ke shi wo gang gang cai yu jian ni"


我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
I believe the meeting is a prank.
"wo huai yu zhe qi yu shi ge e zuo ju"

我想我已慢慢喜欢你
And I think I'm beginning to like you.
"wo xiang wo yi man man xi huan ni"

因为我拥有爱情的勇气
Because I have the courage to love.
"ying wei wo yong you ai qing de yong qi"

我任性投入你给的恶作剧
I sink myself in the prank you given me.
"wo ren xing tou ru ni gei de e zuo ju"

你给的恶作剧
The prank you given me.
"ni gei de e zuo ju"


我才发现你很耀眼
Now I realize you looked bright
"wo cai fa xian ni hen yao yan"

请让我再瞧瞧你的双眼
Let me just take a second look at your eyes
"qing rang wo zai qiao qiao ni de xuang yan"

没有人了解
Nobody will understand.
"mei you ren liao jie"

没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋
Nobody has the love that similar to me and the stranger.
"mei you ren xiang wo he me sheng ren de ai luan"

come nearer la... hahahha

歌曲：靠近一点点

Song title: Come near a little closer
Artist: Lara

默默在你的身後守候的我
I silently wait behind you
"Me me zai ni de sheng hou shou hu de wo"

多想看你不经意的笑容
Really want to see your accidental smile
"duo xiang kan ni bu jing yi de xiao rong"

或许我的心你不懂
May be you do not understand my heart
"huo xu wo de xin ni bu dong"

我会努力让你感动
I will try to flatter you
"wo hui nu li rang ni gan dong"


在你眼中有多麼笨拙的我
I'm the clumsy one in your eyes
"zai ni yan zhong duo me ben zuo de wo"

决不放弃追逐你的执著
I will not give up my will to follow you
"jue bu fang qi zhui zu ni de zhi zhuo"

只要你能再多些回应我
I just need you to give me some response
"zhi yao ni neng duo xie hui ying wo"

一个笑或点头全接受
I will accept a smile or a nod.
"yi ge xiao huo dian tou quan dou jie shou"

能不能再靠近一点点
Can I come near a little closer
"neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian"

大声说出你所有感觉
Confess my feeling to you loudly
"da sheng shuo chu ni suo you gan jue"

别再紧紧关在只有自己的世界
Don't shut yourself in your own world anymore
"bie zai jin jin guan zai zhi you zi ji de shi jie"

温暖太阳为你迎接
The warm sun welcomes you
"wen nuan tai yang wei ni ying jie"

能不能再靠近一点点
Can I come near a little closer
"neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian"

能不能再勇敢一点点
Can I be braver a little bit
"neng bu neng zai yong gan yi dian dian"

就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
Even if I knew it's always a one way love
"jiu shuan rang wo zhi dao wo yong yuan zi shi dan luen"

我也会藏著感谢
I will still keep my gratitude
"wo ye hui chang zhe gan xie"

笑著和你说再见
Smilling to you and say goodbye.
"xiao zhe he ni shuo zai jian"

nice nice lyrics.... =)

江美琪-对你有感觉

我曾深刻体会
对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你
给我安慰


看你失落的脸
又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈


眼角的泪
它给过谁
伤透了心
也无所谓
我会愿意
静静地
陪在你身边


如果说爱
已不可为
那我宁愿
藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉


怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线


怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退
被爱包围
谁犯规
都狼狈
谁能解围
让一切完美


怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我
拥抱瞬间
不后悔
这暧昧
星光唯美
把爱放心里面

there goes my 1st week of 2nd sem...

study study...
tis sem is a tough one for me...
long story... n i dun intend to share it..
sorry... but i jz dun wana be treated differently.. hope u all understan la..

tears drop ever since i step into tis 2nd sem... kind of sad rite?
yea... tat's y i cherish each n every second i spend in tis 2nd sem like i nvr do..
treasure each n everyone tat had left their footprints in my life...
enjoy my campus life jz like i alwz do...
luv my lecturers like i nvr did? ... hahahhaa....

bt one saddest thing is tat... i had chosen to gv up wat i luv most..
a hard decision to be made... a struggle tat is so hard to get rid of...
n in d end.. i decided to quit... ya....
it's being told tat jz for one semester... Nway... i wish it is....
but who noes...
hopefully la...

1st day of my 2nd sem....
wuhuhuhuhu... dimsum~!! yeppee... @@
syiok leh... hahahha... dint sleep tat day... make me blurer on tat day...
but kinf of a memorable start of my life...
hahahha...
jz a simple sms... then it changes my 1st day of 2nd sem...
morning dimsum... afternoon? hahah... tongshui... wow... really enjoy leh...
cool isn't it???... bt i'm being trained... dun simply learn from me yea... hahahah
tat nite chatted wit mynn for whole nite.. wow...
we shared lots of experiences n coomments... hehe...
i mz say tat... again... i really glad to hv her as my roommie... my dear dear pretty roomie..

2nd day of 2nd sem...
the cruel reality of giving up has been announced....
i'm being asked n asked n asked.. yea... cz ppl cant accept it too.. so do i..
then the movie screening.. nice show... luv on lushan mountain...
hahah... still remember ang said tat the lushan zhen mian mu... hahaha...
mana tahu really appear in tat movie.. made us laugh non stop..
oh yea.. 2nd day of 2nd sem... (DLD CLASS IS REALLY BORING... sob sob..)

3rd day of 2nd sem...
erhme... unevitable... DLD is not the only one tat is boring... PMS lagi teruk/. haha
aiks... so cham...
RMMU DAY meeting... Tshirts out... haha... we sang the theme song together...so happy..
long time dun hv tis feel liao.. the familiar yet long time dun hv the family feel in campus...
again... i hv to make decision... isit tat my life is all bout making decision?? aiks...
decisions made... but sadly.. it's too late... too late...
wat i wan is no longer mine... i can only blame myself for taking so much time thinking n decising... but still i'm grateful tat he trusted me so much.. thx...
but for myself... i blame myself... til i collapse tat nite...
thunderstorms... lightning... floods... volcano eruption... it's all wit me...
jz bcz i cannot accept the fact... silly me...

4th day of 2nd sem...
no longer an on-air DJ... no more slots... no more studio time...
tis thursday is no longer a busy day...
but still i enjoy my day... making myself become the cheerful gal again...
=D watch the movie screening... hmm... a story without an obvious ending... make me n ahyyi so confuse... haha... we looked at each other wit tat amuse face... :P

5th day of 2nd sem...
rain drops keep falling on my head.... haha... everyday raining.... sien la...
tis day... hmm... a busy day indeed....
morning gotta jaga booth... aiyo... friday jaga booth... sien kah...
but wat nice is... haha... finally i enter LIMKOKWING... oops....
haha... me n ang had our early lunch there...
wat a cool uni it is... so diff from mmu... feel myself so tiny when i enter tat world... :P
hmm... then whole afternoon is tat freezing cold library.. hehe...
nite?... yeah... can hold mic again.. =D
but a while nia la... haha.. cz no feebback... for the movie screening
tat nite... the movie really nice... me n shyyi nearly shed our tears... :P

6th day of 2nd sem...
sob sob... hv to wake up so early... cz got MUET.. aiks...
then rush to my sis's registration... aiyoyo.. kesian choonki.. hv to rush wit me...
but really really grateful for ur ride.. thx...
wat bout in the nite.?.. haha... sleep like a log.. haha.. but then kena frighten by tat stupiak nitemare.. ish ish... make me dare not sleep bek pulak...
luckily i hv great frens comforting... thx to all tat comfort me.. (wei jie... thx for protecting yea.. hehe.. hui ching.. thx for chatting wit me.. u really like big sister... ying.. thx for remembering tat bullied by 86 is more scarying.. haha.. oops... ang, chee wei, kai... thx for the jalan jalan.. kai gor.. thx for joining my "kai" family.. =D)

7th day of my 2nd sem??
haha...
who noes wat happen in the next second leh..
but surely will be nice la..
=D
there goes my 1st week of 2nd sem...
muacks...

the greatest bday 06

Though it’s ored nearly one month…
But still I nid to write tis blog for all tat I care n all tat I luv…
A simple word… “thx”… is all I can say…
It’s hard to list all of ur names here… but… I’ll try my best to do so…
U noe who u r… hehe.. luv ya…

Firstly~~ my dearest papamama… pa.. ma… u all r the earliest tat wish me yoh…
I noe u all very worry bout me cz me nvr celebrate bday alone~~ or wit frens… each year I’ll b celebrating wit u all…esp tis year… shud b the happiest for me.. cz I like mid autumn festival the most.. n so ngam.. tis year my bday on tis fantastic festival… but too bad.. I got exam on tat day!!~~ n so it makes u all worry.. n u kept on calling me to let me feel more comfort… hehe… thx a lot.. n.. I really feel the warm n care from u all though it’s jz a simple phone call from u all in muar… dun worry… ur ah bi is strong girl… wit strong will.. luv u two the most~~!! Muacks…

Secondly~~ my two gorgeous sisters.... supporting me all the way thru.. though I’m alwiz so bad in temper.. u all still care about me n treat me so well… feel touched in a way… =D . but u noe.. hehe… it’s alwiz hard to say out hw much I miss u all.. n care bout u… a simple sms from u two sisters has warmed my shattered heart tat day after my exam… thx… wendy.. comforting n consoling me thru the sms… moral support from siblings is alwiz so important for me… thx.. jiayou jiayou… n tina… gonna step out from the single life yoh.. hehe… wish u happiness… n I’ll try to attend the registration ya… be the prettiest bride in the world.. my dear…

Thirdly~~ singyee (2mei), lip liang (happy bday to u too 05/10… hehe.. I’m younger than u leh.. hehehe), hui ru (ah ru.. miss u so much), ivy, lijing (jiemei), shirlin, esther (half sis), huisze, kuiyen (daddy), sawlay, huisin (my lenglui bestfren since primary3), tzerhaur (bestfren), fax, kahjuin, tina (2nd sis), boon chean, xiayan (blind), chiaoer (jiemei), weeling (happy bday to u too.. miss u lots my halfsis), chunyee, aikchong (shifu), Manfred, wendy (big sis), weiming (future bro in law), ali, cheemun (ah gong), sook ching, terry (zhipaikuang), xiaowen, youyi (uncle fish), jiaqi (mummy), yiwen, shenni (my bestfren in muar), jasonlim, yenlee (my bestfren since form2), jiuhau, choonki, cheetat (my lil bro egg)….. thx for the sms wishing yo~~~ tat’s very sweet of u all remember my bday n send bday sms to me… u’ll nvr noe d best feeling I get in my bday is to get to read ur sms~~ cool… reading the sms tat is so meaningful in my bday06… thx…. Muacks…

Forthly~~ “Jason, Joshua, tzeyang, jess ks, kersoon, Jessica”=> (hehe.. thx yea.. though we dun really noe each other), lenlui kaijing, TK (my lil bro), kai ning, Anne, stan (cool senior), William, yanyan (thx yea… remember the star yo.. hahaha), meiling (d first muar-ian I noe in cyber), yongkang (hengdai), iQbal (playboy), shereen, xiayan (blind.. hehe), lijing (jiemei), PS, huisin (my dearest fren in tis world), szeyong, chialing, siewhorng, suthesh (bro), steve ….it’s a surprise to hv the testimonials when I view my frenster profile.. it’s like… found out tat I’m being pampered again thru the words in the testimonials… tat’s very kind of u all spending the time to write it for me… hehe… appreciate it lots… thx for remembering…

Fifthly~~ mynn (my lenglui roomie), yingying (d blur blur gal tat is so cute… bestfren), liping, Elaine, Karen (lol… another Karen.. kailun la…hehe), juinhau (little boy), ang (doraemon ahpek), cheewei, weiloon, kai, Derek, songwei (886bro), Alvin (gorgor), soonming (papa), hocksheng (mama), chuiai (xiaomei), alan, Richard, cheewei2, yewchung… wow…. IT’S REALLY TOUCHING… A BIG SURPRISE INDEED… muacks… luv u all…. Pia-ing chek.. still help me do tis celebration… it leaves a memorable moment in my life.. it’s really hard to express hw much I appreciate u all in words.. I hope u all noe n understand tat I really do… =D.. without u all.. I might be banging myself wit all the computer books… haha… THX…. FRENSHIP 4EVA..


MYNN~~ aiyoyo… wana change my style yea??,,, haha…. Thx for the prezzy… I like it very much… whenever u gv me order to wear it.. I sure listen to u.. hahahha…. Thx for spending time to go n select yo…still remember u bought it when I was sleeping.. haha… u r really nice gal… really grateful to hv u as my roomie yo.. thx for the the celebration .. luv u lots.. muacks… miss yea….

ALVIN, SOON MING, ANG, CHEE WEI, WEI LOON, DEREK, KAI~~ hehe… thx for the doggy yo… well-wraped in the box.. hehe… kind of shock n surprise when i noe it’s a gift from 7 big boys.. haha… Nway.. arigato… for remembering tat I like soft toys.. kekekeke….

CHUI AI~~ my dear….. y u bek so early tat day leh??... aiya… tak sempat take photo wit u then u chao liao… sob.,.. .thx for so considerate when u buy the present.. hahaha… so cute…. The mickey mouse “fake” earring.. haha… cz I dun hv “holes” to put on earring on my ears.. hehehehhee…. Aiyo… kekek… n so ngam I can wear it wit mynn.. cz she has one pair too…hehehe… like it so much.. thx yea…. Muacks…

ALAN, RICHARD, CHEE WEI2, YEWCHUNG~~ surprise surprise... so glad to noe u all... though u all dun really noe who i m.. yet u all spend ur precious time to celebrate my bday wit me... thx thx... esp cheewei2 n yewchung.. really nice to noe u two.. hehe... may our frenship remains lo... n i noticed tat all of us really hv fate.. haha... cz alwiz bump into each otehr..... thx for the sweetest memory tat u all gv to me during my bday..

TZER HAUR, FAX, KAH JUIN~~ hahahahaha…whenever I reminisce my bday… u 3 makes me laugh out loud… creative, funny yet mature type… haha… but too bad… it will only be replayed in my mind… nvr in the laptop or any players.. ahhahaha.. tzer haur… thx for the pillow yo… really nice to hug n lean on… hehe… fax.. thx for the idea of kept on wishing me happy mid autumn festival instead of happy bday.. haha… makes me wonder… wat la.. wat are these 3 big boys doing.. hahaha… kah juin? Owh… poor kah juin.. ur hengdai throw the hp to u n let u nego wit me.. hahaha… kesiannya.. anyway… me jz playing tat day la… hehe.. happy kacau-ing u all tat day too.. kekekek… anyway.. really grateful to hv u all as seniors.. nice one.. n playful once.. haha… appreciate..

ANONYMOUS~~ thx for the apple crumble cheesecake wor.. hehe n the recommendation of the shop to hv lunch tat day... cz ... WOW... the cup of drink really really really big.... haha... n will really b a memorable one for me.. hehe... n sorry tat i still cant remember ur name... anyway... gratitude is still there.. hehe

SEE SEONG, MANFRED, ZHIYONG ~~ aiyoyo.... wat la... ahha.... happy bday in tat language... make me nw stil cant remember hw it pronounce... haha... anyway... so happy n touched tat day... really cherish u three to b my best frens... miss u all so much... =)

N thx for those tat attended the zhongqiu gathering of recreational division… hehe…. Cz I had a surprise on tat nite too… being the MC wit ang… n hv a small small celebration… tat’s the 1st time hv tis cake which is mooncake wit the candle on it… so cute… there’re too many of u… u noe who u r…. I’m sincerely grateful to hv u all as frens… hehe.. frenship 4eva… happy mid autumn festival.. lol… ahhahahha

Whatever it is…

tat’s wat makes frenship so meaningful…

n friends so important in my life…

thru out thick n thin…

may our Frenship Remains And Never Can End…

Without u all…

I won’t b able to hv such a wonderful n memorable bday in tis 2006..

thx..

jz to lament...

haih~~
jz finish my first paper...
pem1016... pem ar~~
aduhai... gek sim kah.....
hv to get 50 over 100 in order to pass this stupid subject...
nvr got such a feel b4.... wana pass oso so hard...
wat the hell is tis...
hw i wish i can jz knock the wall n everything get settled..
but.... it's impossible to do so....
argh.... my brain gonna burst liao ar...
another paper coming...
another paper tat nid to memorise those horrible terrible vegetable formulas...
mama ar.....
i miss ur homecooked food...
i miss ur nagging ar.....
faster finish all this...
put an end for my final examintion period plz.....
put an end on my miserable life ar....

wat has happened?

Aduhai~~
someone plz tell me ar...
wat has happened to me/?
everyday so duo luo..
duo luo nvm.... cz i alwiz did tat when final comes.... use to ad...
but... y everyday so moody??
n wat geram me is tat ... i cant even find wat makes me so moody..
OMG~~~~~
hw can tis happen to me again/?
karen ar~~~
karen~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
where is the happy go lucky karen?
where is the cheerful karen/?
where is the karen tat scare of nth but dark n dolls??
where is the karen tat will smile to anyone who noes or dunnos her...?
where is the karen tat will kisiao with frens???
sob sob....
i wan karen bek~~`
i wan the karen wit so many family members...
i wan the karen tat makes her family proud of her...
haih......
long time no so pek cek liao...
somemore.. without any reason..
confirm.. 10 % confirm.. not bcz of studies...
cz.. i nvr bother bout it...
but y leh?????????
aduhai~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

help me ar........
i wan bek myself~