burst out

everything seems to happen so abruptly..
all of a sudden... i feel tat i'm so weak in accepting d truth in life...
so obsessed in d life of a free n "good for nth"gal...
reluctant to throw myself out from d comfort zone...
reluctant to believe wat's being told or wat's in front of me..
kind of disappointed with d "me"
i hope it is still nt too late for me to learn from it...

d truth in life is alwz sth so cruel..
it jz like a sharp knife tat stabbed into ur deepest heart..
it's either to be accepted or u'll gonna live in agony... live in ur own world...
deceiving ur ownself by ur own honeyed words to convince urself not to believe wat's actually happened in ur life...
hw silly it is.... silly....

it really test my maturity in dealing with these....
test my maturity in behaving myself to act normally in front of frens though my heart is bleeding...
torturing myself to be strong yest.... not to show out d weakness in me in front of u all..
but i failed....
when i got d news from d other side of d phone after d movie.... d tears just cudnt stop flowing dwn my cheeks...
i hate to be like tat.... seems like i spoil d whole atmosphere.... sorry
but i'm still not tat tough enuf till i cud stop myself from thinking of it....

however... d worst part is when i gonna b d character in d topic of cheering up all...
hw fake is tat...
i hold my tears.... hold it thru....
i wonder y i hv to b d character... y...
though i dun mind... but after u hv noe it... noe tat i'm suffering from sadness... from down....
yet i'm chosen to be teased.....
it's not funny at all for me.... but it seems to be effective for d others....
n so... i gv up fighting... let go of my pride n all... let it be....
let it be..... i dun care........
since i've no more energy to fight bek... to fight bek tat... hv u ever put urself into my situation?

tired of all these....
trying my best to throw myself into d atmosphere of moving house today...
just to forget everything..
n it did help... after all d hard work in moving all those stuffs from A1 to C1...
sweating is best for me nw... getting myself out from thinking so much...
bout all things...

karen jiayou....... jiayou......
sumtimes... let go is gud...
dun hold everything urself.... it's not ur fault...
u r not d one shud b blamed on...
jz try ur best... n everything will be fine...
cz u just wana be urself... so just be...
u r u urself.... noone can change d fact...
jiayou

P/S: thx for ah jack n gkai in helping to move house.... n thx for yi cheng bring me go c doctor n oso thx for lending me d car... thx for tomato in assisting me thru... thx to all...

it scares me jz nw

went to grandma's hse jz nw...
she looks so pale... jz like d piece of white paper..
it hurts me when looking at her lying at d sofa in pain...
but there's nth we can do...
nth we can do to ease her pain...
i can only sit at there... looking at her..
trying my best nt to let my tears drop dwn...
b a tough gal... b strong...
tat's d first time i c her suffering from tat agony of illenss...
cz b4 tat... when she's suffering.. i'm not in...
tis is d first time i noe hw d situation is...
it really scares me...
but... i'll overcome it.. i blive..
jiayou.....

yumcha

jz bek from lao di fang!
meet my bf... haha.. bestest fren la...
aiks.. forgot to take pic again :(
all d things kept in d heart for so long time all burst out in tat 3 hours meet... so nice......
we chitchated as if we nvr did b4....
a frenship tat lasted since primary 3 till nw... n of cz will lasts till d last breath of us...
it's such a blessing....
it's such a priceless treasure tat nid to be shielded nicely...
i truly cherish d bond... d memories....
kinda down jz nw when found out tat ur mother actually got attacked by minor stroke... so sorry to noe tat...
seems like both of us having d same emotion.... same problem...
but i blive... both of us can overcome d obstacles in life very well.. dont we?
we r d best partners since we were in primary 3....
so many things tat we ored went thru together...
let's strive our best to protect our luv ones nw...
n thru tat... it makes us a stronger person...
n i truly blive... we noe hw to cherish more than others do...
jiayou.... ah mei u can de.... ah bi u can de...
:D
glad to hv d yumcha session jz nw.... i really feel a lot better than being in tat "deserted place" where i can only feel d "cruelest side" of human...
n i hate tat....
i'm not "me" in tat "place"... it's so fake....
thx for letting me release myself jz nw....
thx....

i'm just a simple gal

there's nth i can do~
i'm just a simple gal..
a gal with no strength to change d fact
a gal tat can only barely do anything to make her suffer less..

heart shatters when i c her lost so much weight...
my dam burst when i c her being tortured by d illness..
but there's nth i can do~
life is so fragile...

i had experienced d lost of sum1 tat i luv so much three years ago..
n it seems like it it jz only happened yest...
time flies...
i hate... hate d illness tat found d new target once again...
y grandma? y?

looking at her pale face... listening to her soft voice...
seeing her barely walk more than five steps then hv to sit down on d chair...
still trying her best to take care of her life partner - grandpa...
i c d bond tat is so strong between d two old folks..
n i'm touched...

d luv n care after almost 60 years of marriage... hw nice it is...
chatting with grandpa... trying to calm him dwn...
i can c d fear in his eyes... worry bout his dear wife...
care bout her condition... trying his almight to protect her from any harm...

but who will noe wat will happen then?
noone cud...
n it makes me feel tat... no matter hw much money we earn... hw great we achieved... end up we'll still get nth... if we do not hv d care n luv from d luv ones around us... our family... our frens...

i luv grandpa, grandma a lot...
they are d ones who take care of me so much when i was young....
they are d ones who i count on so much whenever i'm weak....
they are d ones who fetch me bek from school when gastric attacked me..
they are d ones who buy snacks n teatime for me when parents were not in...
they are d ones who share their oldtime stories with me when i've noone to talk to...
they are d ones who are so close to me....
bsides my parents, siblings n frens...

i'm just a simple gal..
just an ordinary gal...
tat i pray so hard... dear god plz bless my grandpa n grandma with health n happiness...
n tat's all i can do...
to hv nice chit chat session with them whenever i can....

cherish those around u~

another nice lyrics to share with ~

最近
李圣杰

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

kiss the rain

雨的印记

生命中
不断地有人离开或进入
于是，看见的，看不见了
记住的，遗忘了

生命中
不断地有得到和失落
于是，看不见的，看见了
遗忘的，记住了
然而
看不见的
是不是就等于不存在
记住的
是不是永远不会消失

my fren sent me tis~~ n too bad... it's too chim for me.. n i dun really understan it:(
but i think it's sth tat really nice.... i hope those who browse my blogspot will like it:D
enjoy~

谢谢你

遇见你是美丽的意外
过去的情感过的很精彩
面对你我发现了未来
爱让我勇敢不管多艰难
快乐的起点悲伤的终点
总是在需要你的时候陪我度过考验
不断的重现感动的画面
在身边围绕着甜蜜幸福的成全

谢谢你对我的爱是最美的语言
我的心愿相信你都听见
就算爱必须离开面对陌生空间
你的体贴值得每天怀念

谢谢你对我等待是最好的再见
我的眼泪相信你能体会
就算爱必须分开留在两个世界
你的誓言没有保存期限

要怎么爱不会有遗憾
梦走得太快舍不得醒来
你的笑让心情很灿烂
心里还存在留下的温暖
快乐的起点悲伤的终点
总是在需要你的时候陪我度过考验
不断的重现感动的画面
在身边围绕着甜蜜幸福的圈圈

谢谢你对我的爱是最美的语言
我的心愿相信你都听见
就算爱必须离开面对陌生空间
你的体贴值得每天怀念

谢谢你对我等待是最好的再见
我的眼泪相信你能体会
就算爱必须分开留在两个世界
你的誓言没有保存期限

过了这些年 距离再远
你一直关心着我 抱着我 照顾着我

谢谢你对我的爱是最美的语言
我的心愿相信你都听见
就算爱必须离开面对陌生空间
你的体贴值得每天怀念

谢谢你对我等待是最好的再见
我的眼泪相信你能体会
就算爱必须分开留在两个世界
你的誓言没有保存期限

谢谢你对我的爱是最美的语言
我的心愿相信你都听见
就算爱必须离开面对陌生空间
你的体贴值得每天怀念

谢谢你对我等待是最好的再见
我的眼泪相信你能体会
就算爱必须分开留在两个世界
你的誓言没有保存期限

学着

夏天都还没过爱就到了尽头
什么都还没说就隐隐作痛
只好深呼吸望着天空
拼命抬头让眼泪往心里面流
该学着勇敢的寂寞
忍耐不是成熟
当爱情沉默的时候
比孤单还难受
该学着微笑的放手
当流星划过闭上双眼
取消永远爱你的心愿
不在想你一整天
也不要拥抱的敷衍
就让勇敢的人先说
再见
只不过到最后爱一个人多久
想忘记一个人也要那么久

scary

last nite was a scary nite for me....
when i was receiving d photos for liping's bday from msn share file... suddenly d sound of "children screaming" came from my back.... it's so loud n so eerie... i was trembling with fear... however still try my best to b brave n turn to my bek to c wat had happened...
all i cud c is d curtain at d neighbours window blowing out by d strong wind... n the trees shaking so hard by d wind... .goodness..wat had happened?? the wind was so strong tat it sounds like human's screaming~~
i felt so gatal with d sound... so scare... n mynn trying to calm me dwn... tomato too....
i can feel tat my gegendang gonna burst by d loud music tat i played with my earphones.... yet i can still hear d "scream".... it lasted bout 1 hour gua... d sound....
nyway... gamsiah tomato for d drawing
n it's proven tat i'm really chicken hearted

it's alan's bday ^^ n it's d 1st day of finalz

hohoho~~
no mood pia for my een...
so bloggy comes.. haha:P
it's alan's bday yo~~ :D
we celebrated it at oldtwn :D hehe...
here's sum details..



d group photo... a big gang of ppl... haha... HAPPY BURFDAY ALAN.. dai go zai lo.. :P

n before everything happenS~~ hehe... me n ying ying enjoy ourselves by taking pics.. :D
hohoho~ :P















cute cute ying ying... so cham,... haha.. cz dun wan me to act hodoh... so.. she sacrifices.. :P
hehe..











the burfday boy (before the "make up")+ burfday cake yo ~~~ @@


hahahha~~ saw tat ?? :P it's d new make up... :P n d new shirt yo :D
"i nvr expect soon ming is holding d cake.... ar.... wat the....." tat's his response yo :D













taking pics with bday boy lo~~ hehe... trust me.... he was forced to do tat action by me... since it's his bday mah... :P wahahhahah

AND THEN~~ ?? hehe....
ss photo taking session starts again :D
wahaha ~~ i think tat's d side effect of cuttin short d hair ... lol...

有你真好

这时候最能让我想起你
多希望你在这里
你总是愿意把你的手心借给我握紧
该往哪里
我总是依赖着你
你是我的方向感
我可以确定
你会带着我朝对的方向前进

i'm thinking of you
我有你真好
你能让烦恼变得渺小
我遇见一个最懂我的人
我会提醒自己
把这份爱收好
i'm thinking of you
我有你真好
只要牵着你的手就知道
我不是一个人在这世界停靠
因为我拥有你在我心里

i'm thinking of you
有你真好
thinking of you
因为有你
我看见世界的美丽
i'm thinking of you
我有你真好
只要牵着你的手就知道(我就知道)
我早已经没有任何缺少
因为我拥有你在我心里

懂了

不该再浪费力气
做些迂回的事情
用眼神直接对你轻声细语

你没有别的表情
总微笑转过头去
轻易解开我传送的谜

如果这样还算不上有默契
至少能代表我们都够聪明
不用再问为什么
不用再说些什么
了了懂了
我们都一直爱着
不用再担心什么
不用再害怕什么
累了睡了
牵着手一起入梦了

wo……yeah

一直算不准天气
错过期待的场景
没在彩虹出现那刻说爱你
你一定善解人意
知道我想的事情
所以下雨不急忙回去

la……

如果这样还算不上有默契
至少能代表我们都够聪明
不用再问为什么
不用再说些什么
了了懂了
我们都一直爱着
不用再担心什么
不用再害怕什么
累了睡了
牵着手一起入梦了

不用再问为什么
不用再说些什么
了了懂了
我们都一直爱着
不用再担心什么
不用再害怕什么
累了睡了
牵着手一起入梦了

spirit tat nvr dies..

Dog gets medal for saving kids....

to my surprise... i found tis article when i wana check my mail...
it's so touching to noe tat even animals hv tat bravery to protect d small ones...
it's so shame of us being d one with d intelligence.. but some not even being able to hv 1% of its bravery...
i truly respect tat lil jack russell...
d spirit tat nvr dies...
tis is d article ~


Tue May 8, 2:53 AM ET

WELLINGTON (AFP) - Nine-year-old Jack Russell terrier George is being honoured with a posthumous bravery medal for saving five New Zealand children from an attack by two pitbulls.

The medal from the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (SPCA) comes after US Vietnam veteran Jerrell Hudman said he was sending his Purple Heart medal to George's owner after hearing of the dog's bravery.

George, who had a heart problem, won fame after defending five children from the pitbulls in the small North Island town of Manaia a week and a half ago. The two pitbulls rushed at the five children on the street, prompting George to charge the much larger dogs as the children escaped.

The Jack Russell was badly mauled by the two pitbulls and later had to be put down because of his extensive injuries. The two pitbulls were also put down.

The SPCA medal is usually awarded to people for their bravery in defending animals.

"George was a very brave little dog who almost certainly prevented severe injury, if not death, to at least one of the children," SPCA chief executive Robyn Kippenberger said.

"It's truly tragic that he paid with his own life for his instinctive act of courage."

Hudman, 58, of Austin, Texas was a US Marine for 30 years and said he decided to send his Purple Heart to George's owner Alan Gay after reading the news on the Internet because the dog was "a little warrior".

The Purple Heart is awarded to those killed or injured fighting for the US military.

when you wish upon "ti gong"

When you wish upon a "tigong,

makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
will come to you

If your heart is in your dreams,
no request is too extreme
When you wish upon a "tigong"
as dreamers do

Fate is kind,
she brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of
their secret longing

Like a bolt out of the blue,
fate steps in and sees you thru
When you wish upon a "tigong",
your dreams come true

it's definitely a nice song... jz tat i'm nutty + notty.. haha..
editted it hoping tat tigong will blessed me without sorrow n without gastric..
tigong bobi... bobi ah bi + bobi ah bi's family & frens shun shun li li... kai kai xin xin... jian jian kang kang... ping ping an an... gamsiah gamsiah :D

whoever wana d correct version of "when you wish upon a star" ... can get from these websites.. :D
finalz~~~~ jiayou !!!
http://solosong.net/wish.html
http://duchessathome.com/music/wishuponastar.htm

as simple as tat

it's d strength tat u gv me all d way thru my life enables me to overcome all d obstacles in my life...
i'm so blessed to hv u in my life...
d relationship btween us is more than jz a fren...
wish tat d bond will be strenghten thru d luv n care tat we gv to each other...
d most important one is d trust...
thx for d support..
i'm so xing fu :D

hmm... another three drawings.. let's see

hmm... tis one... is named "hamp sap fly- frog" haha... hou wadat.. but.. i luv d colors.. it makes me remind of drawing classes during kindergarten... we jz simply use colors to draw watever we want.. hehe... everyone... if u all wana try it out... do play it with ur frens in d YM environment.. DOODLE.. hehe.. :P

















can u c tat? supposaly it's "ISH" haha.. n tat notty tomato edited it by putting "F" n "Y" lol....
n it bcomes "FISHY"... lame ya? hahahha... i think so too.. but it's simple n nice too..
creative:D

















a drawing tat supposaly is "+U" which is jiayou... end up it bcomes like wat's in d above.... haih...
wonder wat's in tomato's head.... "KFC" bcomes "kentucky fried carrot" wat d hell?
haih~~~ n he actually thot tat "MC^2" is "MONG CHA CHA"... aduhai.... mana ada ppl punya brain can think of all these funny terms while studying de?? hahahha....

timbo... my dear

timbo~ my dear....
i shed my tears jz nw... when i got ur mummy's reply.....
"already done. kant find la.." :(
hw i wish i can gv u a big hug nw...
m i too emotional?
i really feel so sad when i noe wendy n kahfook cudnt help u find a mtachy bf...
then end up... u hv to undergo d streilize operation...

my heart shatters.... i feel so sad... thinking tat no more baby timbo...
though i cudnt understan d reason bhind to do d operation so early..
or it mayb not early for vet's thinking..
but still.... i cudnt help myself not feeling sad... n dwn...
timbo.... :(

i really wish to c u having babies cz i noe tat for sure they'll be as cute as u...
as pretty as u...
but... fact is alwz so cruel to be accepted....
i'm sorry

SI TOMATO >.<

hahhaha~~~ tis drawing is proudly presented by the "si tomato"... lol..
i was so shocked when i see d process of drawing.. hahhaa:P
he actually so~~ hmm... hehe hw to say leh? haha... make me feel tat he as if bek to his childhood.. hahhaa :D
so cute...

nyway... tis thing really cheers me up... haha... whenever i c it.. sure i laugh out loud...
i'm waiting for d 2nd edition.. tomato...
let's +oil together yoh... jiayou jiayou :D
thx a lot for all d help....
chili appreciate it lots...

so kelian

你说：鱼并不会哭，鱼是没有眼泪的动物。
可是我看到了鱼在水里哭。
鱼在水里哭，有谁看到了它的悲伤？

你说：树并不会哭，它们是一种没有思想，情感的植物。
但是我看到了树在雨里哭。
树在雨里哭，有谁看到了它的悲伤？

我就是那条鱼。我就是那棵树。
一条有眼泪的鱼。一棵有思想，情感的树。

我依然在哭泣，只是没有人看到。
没有人在哭泣，只有鱼在水里哭，只有树在雨里哭。
我的哀愁，没有人看得到。
没有眼泪的悲伤没有人清楚。
宁可变成鱼，宁可变成树。
也没有人在乎，没有人在乎。

what will ur response be when u c tis??
i found tis from sumone's blog...
so kelian....
seems like noone cud understan him....
haih~

WORLD TOILET DAY

oops... can u actually blive wat i've stated in my blog??
haha... i doubt it too..
but it's real :P wahahahha..
i found it in rage... so funny.. but i think it's quite logic oso la.. haha since if there is a declaration for almost everything.. it is just fair that toilets have theirs too.. haha..
so do remember... 19 of NOVEMBER is heralded as World Toilet Day... :P
hehe..

n there's sth more interesting bsides d declaration yo...
there's actually a non-profit organisation named, World Toilet Organisation, cool ya?
i jz viewed d website.. i was shocked by all d information it it.. :P

it's cool.. n u guys shud checked it out..
www.worldtoilet.org
the website even provides the so called "toilet entertainment" which actually includes the quizzes n games about toilets...
it mayb very hilarious.. but after attempting the quizzes... then only i found out tat... :P
hehe.. i'm actually an idiot in answering the quizzes.. cz i get vr low marks on tat.. hehe

try out n explore the site.. hehe... u'll be amazed by their effort trying to educate those ppl bout d cleanliness of public toilets.. :P
cz so far... i think there's still alot of ppl not having d awareness on tis matter.. :P
no offence.. :P hehe
nyway... since u dun wana hv d brownish stain on ur shoes when u step in d public toilets.. n d unpleasant smell when u wana do ur "business"... hehe...
do share these website to all d frens.. :D
try it out the quizzes to noe wat kind of toilets u r... :P
n c whether if u did all d general knowledge to make d toilets a better place for everyone or not ~

- Flush the toilet thoroughly after use.
- Dispose all unwanted stuffs into the bins instead of conveniently throwing them on the floor.
- Hand basin is only meant for hand washing. Ahem.
- Dry your hands properly after washing. Do not flick water on the floor.
- Guys, do aim properly at the urinal so as not to dirty the floor.
- Girls, don’t step on any part of the toilet bowl.
- Do not smoke inside the toilet as the fallen ash will dirty the floors.

THUMBS UP~ WORLD TOILET ORGANISATION

一封没有拆开的信。。

在一次朋友聚会上，华仔遇见了一个女孩。第一眼，他就被她的美丽的容貌和高贵的气质所征服了。于是，他鼓起勇气对女孩说，交个朋友吧！女孩甜甜的笑了，顺手在一张纸上写了一行字，递给了华仔。是她的地址，华仔接过，顿时，幸福的感觉包围了他. 回到家，华仔立刻写了一封热情洋溢的信寄给了女孩。接下来的子里，华仔每天怀着企盼去看信箱。终于，有一天当华仔打开信箱门的时候，一封粉红色的信静静的躺在那。信很薄。华仔小心翼翼的用小刀裁开信封，却失望的发现里面居然空无一物。华仔很诧异，立刻又写了一封信去问女孩，很快的，他又收到了那粉红色的信封，打开一看，仍旧什么都没有。华仔明白了，女孩是在试探他。于是，往后，他还是给女孩去信，女孩也还是给他回一无所有的粉红色的信封几个礼拜后，华仔接到了一个电话，是女孩托朋友打来约华仔见面的。华仔兴高彩烈的去赴约，一切顺利，他们谈的很投机，发现彼此的兴趣爱好都很相同。兴奋的华仔觉得对这份感情更有信心了。

时间一天天的过去了，华仔家里的粉红色信封数数已经有四十五张了，可是每张都还是空的。同时，华仔身边又出现了另一个女孩，她是华仔的中学同学，刚从国外回来，她找到华仔，告诉他，自己喜欢了他很久~~她同样很优秀，可华仔对她却没什么特别的感觉。

他继续的写信把每天自己身边发生的事，告诉女孩，包括那个她的出现。女孩也仍旧回给他什么都没有的粉红色信封。而华仔身边的那个她与他走的越来越近，在各方面都无微不止的照顾关心着华仔。华仔已经二十六七了，父母都催着他快点结婚，华仔也很急，他写信去询问女孩的看法，女孩却还是回给他空空的粉红色信封。

慢慢的，华仔的心中越来越没有底了，他不知道这份感情最后究竟有没有结果。而粉红色信封也已经累积到了九十八封了，怀着最后一丝希望的华仔又寄出了一封信，他企盼着奇迹会出现。收到信的那一刻，华仔的心里很激动，他知道决定自己命运的时刻到了，怀着复杂的心情，华仔拿起了那封信，他立刻失望的发现，和以往的九十八封信一样，这封信依旧是很簿，很簿，完全没有一点手感的。绝望透了的华仔并没有拆开信，但终于决定与身边的那个她步上红毯的那一端。

婚后他们处的很融洽，华仔也在心中慢慢的淡忘了女孩。直到有一天，在街上，两人再一次相遇，擦肩而过的那一刹那，华仔分明看见了女孩眼中有着深深的幽怨。
某天，华仔和他的妻子闲聊的时候，他的妻子忽然提到了女孩。一阵沉默之后，他的妻子猜测说，会不会那第九十九封没拆的信中有些什么？于是，信被取了出来，裁开了封口，轻轻的，从缺口处飘出了一张同样是粉红色的纸条，那一刻的华仔如被电击，用颤抖的手拈了起来，上面清秀的笔迹写着这么一行字：

“我已准备好嫁衣，等你第一百封信到来的时候，就做你的新娘！”

i found tis entry from an anonymous's blog.. :P
after reading it... i've an undescribable feeling in my heart~
is it sumtimes gals are too adamant? or we are alwz waiting for d person to take d initiative rather than we let go our pride to actually say it out loud by ourselves...
it might be a waste d two of them cudn't be together...
but... it mayb really "you yuan wu fen" gua~
things jz aint d way we want for times.... :)
so do cherish wat u hv nw....
n nvr regret~

strengthless======> defense... fight bek.... arghhhhhhh

reading thru d notes,
i told myself... "yes u can de"...
just put ur effort in it...
n i'm sure u'll be able to find ur way thru to understan them...

thanks to all that support me...
but i lose out all my strength already...
i wonder y...
how now... :(

calculating ODE for d whole day since i woke up...
i'm getting insane by doin all d calculation..
frustration was being forced out from my inner heart by all the idiot equations...
arghh....
it's really "7stars" to finish all these by few days...

havent really start PDE.. i ored lose out all my strength...
no mood at all...
moodless....
colourless..........
but i'll still jiayou de....
cz shame on me ... defeated by those liveless thingy...
i wana fight bek....

thx yan yan, shifu, jowi, blind, zs, tomato,....
i'll jiayou de....

self discipline

gastric attacks me again....
i'm so pissed bout everything these two days...
esp when d stupid gastric gv me second attack on today...

d day b4 yest... i was supposed to study...
but.. i dunno hw it happens..
it jz so naturally tat i fall asleep... goodness... it's really such an embarassing thing...
cudn't even control myself...
it did happen last time... but... i wonder y it strikes me again during d study week...

it mayb really bcz i'm too tired...
but... it's really ridiculous for me not being able to control myself..
n not even hv d strength to wake up at d time i supposed to wake up..

haih~~ disappointment..
disillusion...
karen~ karen~~~ apa hal dah berlaku pada kamu ni.~~

jiayou jiayou

yest chat till around 5 am.. fuyoh~~
long time nvr did tat liao.. hahha...
but... once in a while can la.. :P hehe..
nt everytime.. if not.. i cant tahan:P

topic surrounding "abnormal frenship" tat i had had last time...
or it's still with me?? hehe... i dunno
anyway... let go lo~~ hehe..
everything will be fine, my dear:)
carrotegg u must jiayou oh~~ :D
though d sharing session led u to a vr vr bad dream yest... but it's ored a past... :D
dun look at d past.. ur future is nt at d back... look 4wards for a better future:D

today~~~ woke up vr vr late.. bout 11 only wake up..... sob..
but... manage to finish two chapters lo... :D
hehe... still got lots more to be absorbed.... striving my best to obtain as much as i can...
roommy bought me "jiayou tong shui" ... so nice..
hehe... though d "tong shui" a bit weird.. haha.. cz so many kind of thingy in it... but it's sth to boost up my spirit..
n d brunch tat i made myself... :P my "jiayou sandwich".. hehe..
n later? hahah... d climax... yingtian's "jiayou chicken soup" ... cool ya~~
n i kiss goodbye with d stupid gastric:D

i wish i wont disappoint everyone... :D
but... i mz learn hw to enjoy d process...
i'll make it real~~ :D

hou san fu ar~~ :(

dunno wana stand or sit or lie down:(
feel like vomitting...
hou san fu ar~~~

whole day staying in campus... study study n study...
oh goodness... tis is sth tat really out of "carrotegg's life"
it's totally colourless...
it's sth tat is so boring n so cham for me... :(
esp... last few days i'm still busy preparing for chinese orchestra concert..
everyday play yangqin.. then nw suddenly hv to settle down n do d revision...
honestly... it's really sth tat i still cant get over with la.. :)
but trying myself to put myself into it:D
jiayouoh...

whole day study... then terskip my lunch... got la.. eat bread...
n dunno y d stupid gastric suddenly strikes me again:(
after having my dinner at padi... n rush to post mortem...
n it jz happen so abruptly into me...
holly shit.... i'm really dying... :(
so uncomfortable.....
n end up.. almost for d whole post mortem ... i'm standing... while others sitting..

d post mortem.. hmm...
cudnt tok much bout it here..
nyway.. learning from d experience...
n nvr repeat d history... strive for d best for chinese orchestra in d future...
everyone jiayou~~
but... i'm vr sorry tat... i really not in d mood of being d treasurer...
really really apologize for tat..
though sum of u might think tat... it's so ridiculous... for me to say those stupid statements during d post mortem...
but it's so hard for me to state d reasons... cz i'm jz scared of it ad.. :(
so sorry..... but.. i really luv chinese orchestra a lot...
cz u all gv me a chance to perform again on d stage... where tat's d place i can get my satisfaction besides organizing event... :D

do hope tat we can really achieve our target in d coming new year.. :D
n truthfully hope tat we'll learn from watever tat happens in d concert n during d whole planning no matter it is good or bad...
it's not d matter of success.. but it's d matter of d process. . ;)
hmm... all d best to all of us, to nelson( d one tat leaving soon) in d future undertakings loh~~ :)

n pray hard tat tis idiotic gastric can vanish soon...
cz it's killing me~~
n i look like a ghost nw... so pale..

hou cham ar~~

i locked myself up in tis stupid room for whole day jz to key in tat boring "soya" source into my brain ...
still got "oyster" source.. "black pepper" source.. n all kinds of sources... oh no...
mama~~~
it's so hard....
struggle for whole day ad and end up only manage to read till chapter 4...
n not tat can understan vr thoroughly... how nw>???????
:(
so down la...
haih~~
tigong a..............

outing on 5th of MAY

supposaly~~ i shud study on today de...
aiks.. mana tau... :P
end up outing pulak?? haha.... unexpected...
we shud alwz expect d unexpected.. :P

morning 1030~ i was woke up by phone calls... cz hv to go campus carry instruments bek to kangle... hmm.... then dunno y i enter d proton... n end up in kangle.. then end up in sunway n end up in IOI mall... hahahha...

we do plan to sing K... rite?
but due to sum "personal prob"..
we cancel it.. sorry everyone~~ :) nxt time lo
n we spend our own sweet time window shopping in sunway pyramid...
photos taken at red box lobby~ :D

i look so tired.. cz i wana slp... :(
i blur blur go out to d town liao..
so siah sui.. :( hehe...
but... kept on bullying those guys...hehe.. esp d oldest one...
kesian him kept on kena boom by me...
no chance to boom lo.. hehe.. so mz bully gao gao:p



haha... trying our best to squeeze in three heads into gkai's hp..
hahah:P
taking our photos with nelson...
tat soon will leave us lo:P
i like tis pic:D





hehe... i wan to take with u all oso..
:P
cz vr sien... can u all c gkai's hair?
haha.. he did tat for his three free meals on d next day:P













haha... me n gkai..~~
teurknya.. but... hahaha..
really vr funny:P
kelakarnya~~
esp when i c his hair... hahahhaha
:P

though tired.. though no time study... though end up cudnt make it for sing K n watch movie..
i'm glad tat i woke up at 1030am tis morning.. haha..
cz i spent a great time in tat proton car.. :P sauna-ing.. hahahha
i bet zhenning, nelson, changshoon, huifen understan wat i mean gua.. :P
still remember jz nw huifen so excited when she wana try using her "touch n go" card.. haha:P
so cute..

still got~~ summore.. hahaha... :D
more adventure part... is when nelson n zhenning.. haih..
these two fellos.. jz wont fasten d seat belts...
so kongbu.. hahaha.. cz we met d so call "bai yi" police.. :P
whew.. hahahha...

n we do enjoy ourselves ss-ing n especially d big feast for d lunch rite?
d big feast tat make us end up playing "number" game to finish d food.. haha :P
haha... tat makes us stil feel full till jz nw.. BUT NOT NOW.. cz all of us jz heard our stomach roaring few minutes ago.. :P... hahahha:P

wat bout d fuel?? haha d petrol??
hehe.. ok lo.. we all trust d driver.. haha.. d oldest person among us as well...
tat it can tahan till it reach cyber... :P hahaa... n it realy can tahan till we reach cyberia...
fuyoh~~~ a round of applause to "lau yiu tiao" :D
n i still can heard hui fen n oso zhenning guiding nelson drive.. :P
haha.. n chang shoon's laughing.. LOL

nyway.. we'll make it for all d things we missed next time, dun we?
hehe... gambateh for final lo~~~

YUMCHA

HEHE... yumcha session after orientation series general meeting~~
i get to noe new frens from orientation nite's committees...
thx to jack lo.. haha... macamlah vr bo syiok...
jk la... thx thx... for bringing me n my two lil cute sis to putrajaya makan... :D

n if u c clearly.. tat's wat we eat.. mee rojak... roti dunno wat.. haha.. n oso d icecream.. cool man... :P


but it's kind of funny when we reached there.. we were drag to both d shops.. haha...
they welcome us as if we will make them earn a lot of money.. or we are so called... wat wat VIP la.. :P hahahha>.< style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204); font-weight: bold;">funny situation.. n awkward too.. cz dunno wat we shud react.. :P hehehe...
one of d lil sis... ying tian....
aiks... dint take pics with christina pulak:(
so sorry...
but sure got chance... nxt time ya...
we yumcha again.. :D n ask tat person tat "release aeroplane" belanja ya.. hahahhaha:P




after yumcha~~~~~~
















thx to jack jack .... bring us to d bridge...
long time nvr go there liao.. last time alwz go there.. :)
but nw no nid liao.. :) hopefully.. hehe...
but dunno y... kena halau by police :(
but luckily manage to take pic.. hehe.. :)
i hope my two mei mei enjoy ya.. :)

orientation series.. jiayou jiayou jiayou

sth to feel glad with

though... nt so satisfied.. n not so happy with it...
but... i'm glad tat from d training... there's still sum memories to be reminisced... :)
here's sum of d details... :D


CAN U BELIEVE THIS??
HAHAHHAHAH.... TRUST UR EYES.. HE'S .... OUR LAO YIU TIAO ... :D yeah.. it's true.. :P














hahhaa... i think he gonna kill me for putting it in my blog.. :P
but... i'm glad tat u "huo chu qu le"hahhahaha..
bcome younger obviously.. :P
hahahha.... cant stop laughing looking at this pic..
let's shout together... :"wo na dao qiu liao....~~"






while waiting for our turn... let's play...
haha... it's me, zhenning, chun jun, yu lin, n d er hu zai...
hehehe...
it's d first day those kangle ppl come n practice wit us..








mingjie... :D d cello gal n oso d luo xiao jie.. haha...
miss those time we practice jin she kuang wu togehter...:D
hehehe






at home... very sien... while chatting wit u.. haha.. so mah take pics lo..
hehehe


it's chun jun's bday... gv her hug hug... :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY


tis is d clown.. tat makes me cry whole afternoon cz i really phobia:( but nvm.. i noe wat he scared of.. haha.. hope u grad soon :P


gan gan... .madam gan... our chairman... :D
posing... lol..



dun misunderstand...... he's my shifu... :) vr shy de.... but we luv to tease him..
thx for u n edmund guiding me play d "Diao ba" though i'm really blur.. thx


muacks to all ..... u all are d best co ppl :D
(mei kuan, mingjie, huifen, lily, zhenning, yulin..... n many many)


sth special in here.. :D
we found out sth
hahhaha..
shhh.. :P
heheheh

3rd of MAY 2007

d day has come...
finally... after d long long long planning n all..
after d 7 days of tiring but quite enjoying chinese orchestra workshop..
we hv our chinese orchestra concert held on tis 3rd of MAY 2OO7...
xing ku da jia le~~ :)

7 days of training is really sth tat make me wana shout out... "I WANT FREEDOM ARGH~~"
maybe it's bcz practicing with those tat we are not familiar with.. somemore very geng in playing those instruments... will make us feel.... wat shud we do to mix around with them??
even though we ored take d first step to ask them... they are too shy to answer... we are still doing our own tasks each n every day of d training... but supposaly.. we shud b in one team...

i can only declare tat.... d session for sharing n introducing to each other has been done too late at tis time... d knot tat has been tied together for kang le n mmu cyberjaya is not tight at all for d first 5 days... it's only be tied on d 6 days which is ored too late... for wat i think.. personally...
mayb it's our fault for nt taking d initiative too?? but... noone shud b blamed for these anyway... jz nxt time... i hope there is... then we dun make d same mistake again...

for d concert.... i'm very excited when it starts... as i luv to perform... though i'm not being allocated to be perform for d first song.. as i'm still too new for it.... of cz i am new... i'm jz one tat just learn for less than 6 months where others are trained for more than 5 years ad... but d mood was spoiled when teacher took away d MC's mic n onwards....... it's doomed.. for me... i think it's such a bad impression for all... it makes d whole concert become a rehearsal or normal practice but not a concert... n thing get worst when she communicate with d audiences in cantonese... anyway... as she said during d yumcha...where tat's wat she think is right.. n she has the right to do so as she thinks it's d way to heat up d atmosphere.. it's for our own sake...but for my point of view... at least there shud b some better ways to take d mic from n some respect for d mc... d way she handle those things ~~it's sth tat is so harsh n so ..... i duno hw to describe... tat i just dun think it's d right way...

anyhow... i did my part n i tried my best to avoid d clown as i'm so phobia with the clown... for other stuffs.... i'll jz remind myself for not doing it for my own events... :)